Monday, May 22, 2017

janam..janam...jahanam hehhehe :P

i try singing janam-janam-Forever...infinity

friend always said it as"jahanam...jahanam" -malays word-
mean something like disaster/hell/damn/inferno/blasted ahahaha
they're crazy =_=

wait...does it mean..infinity/forever is kinda disaster/hell ahahahaha

but they love listening to this hindi song
and they will laugh...hahahahahahaha
there is something bout them...
yoooo..friend...tell me your secret!!!!!!!! bwahahahaha

my friend be like...
she just wanna rest at her dormitory..for half day
and tomorrow..i'll meet her again...
but she hug me...and tell..."o my i already missing you"...and laugh 

-she must be people of love-
-i'm kinda of dark...but God bless me with people of love :P-

ok..listen...from 5 y0 me
i don't caught in mad love
so..maybe my voice will not reach your heart as mad love
maybe will sound like...friendship kind of love...muah..hug
everybody love me
i love me too
thank you

 imaginary prince
will teach me bout mad must be hurt..right?  ouch
-i don't like prince!!!!-and i don't like king!!!i love mom..n i love me
meet me in grave. dear prince bwahahahaha...i gonna be your disaster!!!!!

i'm jelous listening to his voice
it sound..beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Janam janam janam 

Saath chalna yunhi  
Walk by my side 

Kasam tumhe kasam  
Promise me 

Aake milna yahin 
that you will meet me again 

Ek jaan hai bhale  
We are two bodies 

Do badan ho juda  
but our hearts beat as one 

Meri hoke hamesha hi rehna  
Be mine, forever 

Kabhi na kehna alvida  
Do not leave me ever 

 Meri subah ho tumhi  
You are my dawn
Aur tumhi shaam ho  
You are my twilight 

Tum dard ho  
For you, my heart aches 

Tum hi aaraam ho  
and only you can allay the pain 

Meri duaaon se aati hai 
I have only one wish ever 

Bas yeh sada  
Be mine, forever 

Meri hoke hamesha hi rehna  
Do not leave me ever 

 Kabhi na kehna alvida 
Do not leave me ever


Friday, May 19, 2017

I think

I think
Got a very big crush on me

It visiting me again ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Mama cat n 5 kitten: library

I just went home for 3 days
And she ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜˜
She love her kitten
I'm jealous with kitten
Cause mom is there ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Said she gave birth on monday at noon

All orange...

Monday, May 15, 2017

Lucie Jones- Never Give up on you


dance of the goddess

Shakti that turn to be Kali

p/s: good nite-love

Sunday, May 14, 2017

alenjandro sanz e ivete sangalo-no me compares

i found this song
and i love listening to it
dont know
what they said.....

this song

i love her voice the most
she sound soooooo harmony
imma gonna find the meaning

Agora que gemem mais pรกlidas nossas memรณrias,
que hรก neve no televisor.
Agora que chove nas sala e se apagam
as velas do barco que me iluminou.
Agora que canta o tempo chorando seus versos
e o mundo enfim despertou.
Agora perdido em um silรชncio feroz que quer desatar esses nรณs.
Agora enxergamos direito e podemos nos ver por de trรกs do rancor.
Agora te digo de onde venho e dos caminhos que a paixรฃo tomou.
Agora o destino รฉ ermo e nos encontramos neste furacรฃo.
Agora eu te digo de onde venho e do que รฉ feito o meu coraรงรฃo... 

Vocรช nรฃo sabe por onde andei depois de tudo amor.
Eu sou a chave, da porta onde encontraste alguรฉm…
Nรฃo (No) me compares…
Nรฃo busque nela o olhar que dei a ti,
Imperdoรกvel, que eu nรฃo seja igual a ela…
Entรฃo nรฃo fale, que alguรฉm te toca como eu toquei.
Que se acabe e que tu partas sem saber
e para sempre, ninguรฉm te toca como eu toquei.
Que se acabe... Yo soy tu alma, tรบ eres mi aire.

ok..i see it...
that is why i love her voice ahahahahaha
my tribe ahahahaha

and for the -his-solo music video
no me compares
i be like

i love voice
but when i see his video
i be like

if I see my boyfriend
- ok pretend i have boyfriend la~la~la-
making music video
touching another girl
then…for sure


my jealous is not kind of 
forgiving you
and let you stay with me
like second chance

my jeolusy...
will make you
out from my life like forever
dont ever appear...anymore

THIS one nevermind…cause i don’t have boyfriend…and i really don’t care…
like demi sang… EVEN IF THE STAR &  MOON COLLIDE

- i wrote this..before...reading the song meaning-
-let's see the meaning of this song...why i wrote it like this-

p/s: o my again...
i'm imbalance ahahaha

Me & Voice & Sound & Music

it is like im translating their hidden secret

i hear your voice
and suddenly...i'll write something
feeling that i feel..when i'm listening to it...

it always
end up
i'm writing your history
without noticing it

i always remind myself

dear me...
you're reading their aura
that is not yours

keep calm

you don't even have enemy
 you don't even know how to hate
you're natural

don't feel bad
bout it

dear me
your aura is like
transparent...crystal clear
but it still weak

you're like
confuse with human being
5 yo angel

p/s: that is my light side...
what i don't like about light
light will attract dark
dark is light bodyguard -___-!!!!

it feel like

i don't like dark
i scared to sleep in dark for so many year
i'll scream
so many time..friend n mom caught me screaming 
ya..i caught in trauma..n scream
cause...i saw..they have no face
i see..dark figure...that was why i scream....
and i don't want to be surround by monster
i'll take care of myself
dont need bodyguard

still piss off with dark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrr ahahahaha crazy
kill dark!!!!

fairytale end ahahahaha
light turn to be wicked

p/s: you're so right
i'm the key
don't compare me with anyone else
with him or her

cause they all will perish...

don;t make me jelous
cause when i don't like you
i mean your behaviour
you're doom 

i love you too much
it can't be explain with word

my jealousy always turn to be the curse 
and you'll suffer like infinity
cruel/wicked beloved ahahahaha 

Saturday, May 13, 2017

I'm walking alone ๐Ÿ˜…

I'm waiting for my burger
So...I decide to walk
N admire/appreciate my surrounding
My beautiful greenery scenery

I found this

Ya...this uni
Is reserved forest anyway

But where is the mommy???

About me

I think I have a lot of
Dark princess inside of me

Even a simple thing about (feeling,) (empathy)...

I learn that thing by observation to others

I don't feel sorry, pity...N not even sad seeing human die...

Example: I don't felt sad when my grandmother passed away...

@animal die...too
I don't feel sad
Even that was my pet

I took care of them
Give em bath...
Give em food
But when it die...
I don't feel sad
I just look at how it breathe...the last breathe

I just like zero feeling

You, know
Something like, I don't have a heart
And it is not acting....
I just don't feel

Basic thing that human should have...

N it isn't fair...
Why am I like this

So I keep asking God why?


My journey to know me

Today:picnic+bonding time with my tribe ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜˜

I'm black...N my friend colourful one
Actually, there are three of us
She went for her meeting
N we wait for her, there ๐Ÿ˜‰


Thanks all keep teaching me bout
Friendship, love, family, heart

I'll learn it slowly
Step by step...


Thursday, May 11, 2017


I think I goonna die
With this english language

Sustainable tourism
Logistic industry

I am not familiar with such term

Ya...I do know bout it
But I'm not familiar

I'm mute
I don't wanna talk in english with you
๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ญ I feel so difficult
Feel like crying
So...all my foreigner friend

Please speak MALAY language with me YA
I'm princess anyway

Ofc...that is the price/effort
that you must show to me
Learn my language
N then, you can freely speak with me

If not...
I pretend, I'm mute
N snobbish

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Bumble bee


Dunno y
Love at first sight
I feel so satisfied looking at this picture

I'm full
N satisfied n happy
N I fall in love with fluffy2

Hug this bumble bee

Feather: Owl or eagle?? ๐Ÿ˜…

I found this Bird feather on my way to cafe
Or on my way back to room from cafe

On june/2016

So I kept it ๐Ÿ˜…

Is it eagle or owl???


My friend said to me
That I should work at zoo
Cause I'm attracting a lot of animal ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Ya...I think the same too ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜ฑ
I love animal...With their fluffy2 fur/feather

p/s: owl/eagle stalked me or what?
Cause Bird around me are acting a little bit weird..They come close to me and stare O_o!!!

It stare at me!!!! O_o!!!!
It doesn't fly
It jump..jump...n walk slowly
N stop front of me...N stare

Monday, May 8, 2017

New library Cat: mommy

She want my pizza -____-๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‚
You know... she don't really eat pizza
It just...mommy to be thing
They just wanna try to eat everything that pop out from their mind

Who did this thing to you๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚
you're pregnant
She suddenly appear at night:library
With her big tummy

N black cat disappear...don't know
Where he go...

This is her real food

I try to be nice with cat...
So, I copy paste my friend behaviour
They like to feed cat...

So I did the same...

Thursday, May 4, 2017

My conclusion: bout human

This vid
Explain bout human perfectly

For me
They're crazy
Donno y they do the thing they do
Donno y they keep doing
N repeating the same thing

watching this vid
I be like...

I don't wanna be human
They're so weird...I swear it!!!!!

You...freak me out...

Watching this
Made me thinking I'm from somewhere else
Not belong in human group muahahahahaha

I'm 5 year old
With angel frequency
So I don't understand
Y God create such unbelievable moron human...hahaha

Just kidding
Dont be serious with 5 yo

p/s: Do you feel the same?
I think my mission on diz earth
Is to change/brainwash human mind
N install new brain to them

So this earth will be more heavenly

My mood


It say hi to me

Should I spare his/her life?

If I'm mom, this will be your last chapter on diz earth...

Even how cute you are

She will step on you...

So I learn from mom
Sometime I step on spider...kill it

And this kind of picture will pop out on my a lot..
What does it mean?
Ya spider never do any harm to me...
I just following mom advise

I like butterfly
So I teach mom not to kill/step on

She agree with me... N spare caterpillar life...

But no spider...

p/s: I did not step on it yet
So please disappear...before I kill you...

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Recall: library memory

30/1/17 this place
Ghost favourite place
2 round table...

I sit there
Cause no human sit there
So I can focus
And all other place already full

I stay up till 3/4
Staring at my book
Just like that ghost behavior

This 2 boys

That is why it stare at wall
Or at another round table behind me?

I was thinking...
Maybe it stare at lizard
Wat that cat was staring at ? O_o!#!!

That black cat..
He zzzzzzZzzz...N his friend
Wide awake..N stare at something huhuhu human...
Only 2 human..I guess.... should accompany that ghost!!!!! she won't be alone...hahahahaha

Today story

I'm waiting for my choco waffle
N ice blended chocolate dark pearl

N snap this flower

It look like sakura a lil bit๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜…

N friend telling me bout vampire at our many people/student saw her reading book at this library

So, I think I can be her friend too

Remember, my first day stay up at this lib
I sat at her favourite place till 4 am
Or near her favourite sit O_o!!!
I don't know huhuhu
Will never sit there anymore
Student said...She like that place
She will read journal/article

Sometime...maybe when she get bored
She will have fun with student....
Most of the time she ignore them
She Only stare at her book

Maybe not vampire...
It just..they tell me
A girl/woman reading book
But she is not human.....

And last night
Some student said...
Something scream at 4 am
Women voice huhuhu

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Today song: Study

This sound nice

Enjoy this hymn

I love goddess Saraswati


I'm bias...
Cause...I like all 3 female goddess

I love sakti the most cause
She is mom
I love mom

I love Saras
Cause she is super intelligent

I love laxmi
Cause she bring positive aura of happiness

But...3 male, Shiva, Vishnu, Brahma
I don't like them huhuhu
Or...less interested...not interested
Sushhs suhhss hehe

I don't even understand...why mother like them hurm

She is mom anyway...
Bad or good she love her child hurm
Great I'm not mom
So I can kick punch...N shushh shush
Stay away from me....huhuhuhu
Evil monster

I'm just 5 year old...
Dont take it to heart
It is just normal
Dont be sensitive n emo with 5 yo hahaha

Monday, May 1, 2017

Keep the faith!

I will stay strong


My voice :) :P

I'm trying alone song


Short version


"my all" Ayumi Hamasaki
Someday,I'll try Chinese song...


Sing me to sleep zzzzzzzZZZZzz


Jealous song

I don't have time to edit
Sing in my room...N upload


Ok I love me
If you don't like my voice... Get Lost!!!!! Hahaha
If you like my voice...
May you rest in peace bwahaha
It will cure ur insomnia ....

I'm sleepy
I don't have mood to look at book right now..

I just wanna be alone
Sometime, I sing like crazy...N I love screaming song....Cause they scream for me
I want to scream too...but I don't have that kind of energetic voice

So hearing they scream
Heal me

Ok bla..bla..bla
If you miss me...
Listen to my voice k

N u can join green Bird team
Cause it sleep listening to my voice

It think my voice was like sleeping pill 
I wish I could be like it
Cause it can sleep safely
Not afraid with monster

What am I blabbering
I think I gone crazy

 Bye2   ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’‹