song

Loading...

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

bed time love story: sleepy






http://umimaudah.blogspot.my/2009/10/ada-satu-kisah-cinta.html
Cerita ini umi dapat dari seorang teman karib - kisah sahabat dia. Sebuah kisah 'cinta' ...



Begini.. Ayu, pelajar Maahad (bukan nama sebenar) sangat meminati seorang pemuda hafiz bernama Nuaim Zidat (bukan nama sebenar), setiap hari dialah yang jadi tukang azan, iman. Akhlaknya sangat mulia. Menjadi kegilaan gadis Maahad.Rupanya pula, subhanallah.. kalah hero hindustan. Ayu sering berdoa.. "Ya Allah, jika ada jodoh aku dengannya, temukanlah kami". 

Tapi dia merasakan dirinya sangat kerdil berbanding dengan pemuda ini. Rupa pun bukan secantik heroin bollywood, lagipun keluarganya sangat naif. Mustahil, pemudah hebat ini akan memilihnya. Hari berganti hari, tahun berlalu.. Pelajar Maahad menyambung pengajian di IPT pilihan masing-masing. Ayu berpisah dengan pemuda ini tanpa menyatakan 'cinta'nya. Setahun kemudian, ibunya melahirkan anak kembar, oleh kerana minatnya yang teramat sangat, Ayu menamakan salah seorang adik kembarnya dengan nama pemuda impiannya itu. 

Ditakdirkan Allah, sepupu Ayu (Zaim) satu pengajian dengan pemuda ini. Pada suatu hari, sepupu Ayu bercerita tentang Ayu;menyebabkan Nuaim tertarik untuk mengenalinya. Maka bertekad pula menulis sepucuk surat tanda salam perkenalan. Zaim dengan gembiranya menyampaikan hajat sahabatnya kepada Ayu. Alangkah terkejutnya Ayu tatkala membuka warkah - Nuaim Zidat! Hampir terjerit, terpaku melihat surat yang sudah lama diimpikan. Tapi maruahnya membataskan, berkata Ayu kepada Zaim " Aku tak layak untuk dia, kau sampaikan salam pada dia.Penolakan ini dikhabarkan kepada sahabatnya. Nuaim agak kecewa, oleh kerana hatinya merasa cukup tenang untuk gadis ini, maka menyusul surat kedua dan ketiga dan ke-empat. Aduhai, hati Ayu akhirnya lembut untuk membalas surat ke-4. 

Dengan penuh rendah diri, Ayu menceritakan. Antara lain Ayu berkata, "Saudaraku, sesungguhnya apabila kau mengenali kenaifan diriku dan keluargaku pasti hasratmu untuk mendampingiku akan lebur sama sekali kerana darjat kita tidak pernah akan sama". Rupanya isi surat Ayu telah menambat hati Nuaim untuk terus menghantar rombongan merisik seterusnya meminang. Sebulan selepas bertunang, Ayu dan Nuaim Zidat diakad sebagai suami isteri. Pada malam pertama- Dalam solatnya, Ayu sujud sungguh lama. Tidak mampu menahan sebak, terisak di atas sejadah. 

Tatkala menatap wajah suaminya diceritakan doa dan hajatnya untuk dipertemukan dengan Nuaim sejak di bangku sekolah lagi, menyatakan bahawa rindu serta cintanya terhadap pemuda itu tidak pernah padam. Malah perasaan itu semakin mekar tiapkali bersama adik kembarnya.. Nuaim sungguh terharu dengan cerita 'cinta' Ayu, semakin dia yakin telah menemui 'cintanya yang sebenar' -



Tidak sedar pula air jernih melelah di pipi tatkala sahabat karib umi selesai bercerita.

" Hai.. hang ni feeling lebih pasai pa?" sahabat umi menyinggung.

" Ana kagum... dengan cinta Ayu, cinta mereka agung" Umi memuji.

" Benar.. sekarang mereka dikurniakan dua cahayamata comel, sepasang! persis hero, heroin hindustan!"

Umi senyum senang. Itulah balasan bagi hamba yang menjaga syariat dalam mengaplikasikan cinta suci. Mudah-mudahan anak2

di luar sana dapat mengambil manfaat dari kisah cinta ini.






 ....................................................................................................................................................

from this story, i learn, if we really love someone, and you want to be with him/her, sooner or later you’ll get him/her yaaaaa….

but, what if, you love someone, and you still can’t live with him or her? cause she/he doesn’t like you!!!! My answer: maybe you should check your heart. Maybe your love is so fake, that it make him/her build huge wall…

……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..
me: Allah, he/she doesn’t like me, but no worry, i don’t like him/her too wakakakaka
no, i lie, i like him/her, and i want to be his/her friend, but he/she broke my heart into pieces
and i’m not gonna give him/her second, third chance…  -drama princess-

why he don’t want to be your friend?
because he don’t want to be just friend
he want more than that -________-
and it made him freaking angry with me
do you understand him? cause i don’t….

-just fairytale- in my imagination-
-why human get angry if she/he don’t want to be with them?-
……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..

true love, will touch any heart deeply…and any heart can’t say no ….
cause every heart recognize true love……………………………………………….
what is true love? True love…how to have true love?
First,  you should find yourself…ya you lost you for a very long period. You don’t even know who you are. And when you start to discover about your own self, you’ll begin to know about God. And then, you start to know about true love.
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………

but, it is scary tho…Maybe that girl  asked God for that boy to be her husband, everyday. She is so shy and can’t even speak to that boy. And she name her new born lil brother with his name. She must freaking crazy falling in love with him. O_O I hope they will live happily ever after… their story is so lovely hahaha.

i can’t imagine myself doing such thing. I don’t ask God to give me husband cause it is freaking scary. What if God answering my prayer. I’ll be TOTALLY dead. Everyday, i be like… Dear God don’t ever give me to any human, they’re scary…scary..and scary. I wanna live with you, i don’t wanna live with human -___-!!!

Long time ago..i just want to give up with my freaking crazy mind, and just marry any boy that wish to be with me…but….hurm she can’t, she cry, and then she run. She must be Crazy. What is wrong with her? Two personality in me…one is so damn happy…and another one, is so sad… -_____-!!!

each muslim always asking God in their prayer to have a good wife, husband, children…but i don’t have that kind of prayer, i just can’t. I just tell God about mom and dad, say prayer for them. I was born into this earth, so sudden i got mom and dad. It’s ALREADY weird. I’ve God…and all this stuff is weird… hurmmmmmmmm

EVERYTHING IS WEIRD

i think i already change… But i just still the same. I remember, i was maybe five, six, seven year old that time. And one of my friend said, “you’re my girlfriend” “yeay i’ve girlfriend” And start from that day, i don’t play with him anymore, and he told about i’m his girlfriend, to everyone he met. i can’t speak a word, i just went straight to home. I think, the next day, I just watch him from far… i wanna play with my friend like always but i can’t.

In college..someone asked me to be his wife. I felt so worst. I felt  like i want to commit suicide. I just wanna die. And i cry -______-!!!!. Why?…. See i’m not breaking anyone heart, my heart also break into pieces…

I MUST LEARN ABOUT MYSELF. WHY????????? WHY I CAN’T BE NORMAL LIKE THEM. WHAT IT FEEL TO FALL IN LOVE LIKE NORMAL HUMAN BEING? TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVE? i JUST HEARING THE SOUND OF MY HEART BREAKING…

ya..one more thing…i feel so thankful to each human that rejecting me. Cause if they didn’t reject me it must cause a big problem to me later. I don’t know how i want to protect her, she was so naïve, and me the now, is not there to help her. If me the now is there, i wanna hug her, and say stay away from human, ya, you can love them, but you need to stay away from them.

So, if you fall in love with her…don’t say about be my wife, girlfriend…and what so ever, cause she don’t understand about that, if you do that she will start to feel sooooo sad. She will look at you, like you're monster. There is something about her, that i, myself don’t understand. Eventhough she is me, but it feel like, she is not me. She is someone else, and she live in me. Opposite from me.
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..

Me: she love everyone, she love to be with her friend, everything is fun for her. She couldn’t stop laughing.

She: she is so cold, she always crying – i don’t know who make her feel so sad- she is crying everyday.-donno how to make her stop from crying-if i found the person who make her like that. i gonna punch that person face. And say..HOW DARE YOU!!!!  why you hurting my sweetheart…

i think..she is the one who make me wanna stay away from human… So i need to know about her. About her history. Who she is? Why? Who are you?

p/s: see..maybe she is the ghost that live with me…scary -______________-!!!!
she is with me from the day i was born..maybe,, who know…..
haunted
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………


And don’t try to hurt her if she don’t want to be with you. hurmmmmmm. She appreciate love so much. But this life is so mystery, she is so confuse. She think she know about love, but  love is mystery.  She is so confuse with human

she love human, human run away from her. No one want to be with her. When she learn to hate human, human start to love her. Are you playing with me? I don’t wanna play with you. I just wanna break your heart, until you know about true love……………………………….

can you teach about true love
without make me sad...........

p/s: i think i'm crazy -______-!!!!



No comments:

Post a Comment