Tuesday, May 31, 2016

final mood

you want to know the difference between a master and the beginner?
the master has failed more times than the beginner has even tried

the creator
the preserver
the destroyer

(cycle of life)

dear young warlock indeed must you learn history 
for history always repeating itself

everything that has a beginning has an ending
this is how this game of life keep repeating
for us to learn the wisdom from the event

must yourself free from this samsara
if thee choose to be the puppet of the heartless creator- Evil King
my advice, please be the puppet that see the hidden hand
that play thee using his unseen string
and ask him why?

cycle of civilization

exhausted must be this creature we call as human
for how long they wish to wonder in this dream state?
i wonder



could you tell me
where Atlantis gone?
where Lemuria gone?
where your Babylon?
where all that ancient civilization

even their precious ancient language also gone
just like fairy tales

that is the work of THE DESTROYER
when they're at the peak they lose their morality
so must we end their evil doing

after that...
earth will calm itself and new life begin again

the destroyer will kill and human will start to ask about time when the death come to them
that is the beginning for them to realize about the reality of this world
space and time

the destroyer teach you about the time concept, illusion
 hahahaha kidding

ok enough fairy tales
sleepy already

ok back to reality

if i play as one of the character in that life game, i would be

i would choose to be preserver ahahahaha
i don't like to destroy thing, i like to take care of animal, flower, and i want this earth to be beautiful
but still i won't angry with the destroyer, cause they just do their work ^^
they're in my team huhu

but...i'm off from any game
i just watching and be the watcher


da sewel kah kah kah
apa la yang aku merepek ni

ok back to the now...

oi...silly girl...focus on your study...don't write any fairy tales if you don't finish your homework
you said that you don't want to be like Evil King, so finish your work stop running from your obligation
as student hurmm...

create the harmony space in your life, focus, follow the rule, even you hate rule and protocol
i hate protocol..i'm not princesss..why should i follow the rule of this kingdom fairytale -____-!!

but you're student..that is why!!!!!
you can hack this game study the rule...may someday you understand it haishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

p/s: read it as...trinity knowledge

not religion
in religion the Creator is Him, one and only ^^
the most beloved

mungkin nanti kamu akan nampak persamaan..
sebab itu Tauhid itu penting
yang kamu lihat adalah sifat2Nya...
kenali Pencipta agar kamu kenal diri sendiri
moga tenang nanti diri yang sesat dalam ilusi......

tak apa jika sesat
yang penting ada keinginan untuk cari jalan pulang
bukan menangis, berputus asa, sampai bila ingin seksa diri sampai begitu?

He create you different in tribe and nation,  so you may know one another

Sunday, May 29, 2016

the destroyer

childhood memory time

i remember at that time, i think he was a very cool boy, i just want to be friend, but he think i’m so annoying, he don’t like i’m following him. Maybe lil me, just want some role model.

same with her, she always think that i’m so annoying. She got jelous, and she wrote something on paper, that said and describe about her jelousy. When i’m big enough to read/understand. Totally she broke my heart into pieces. 

and with lil bro, cause people always teach me about hate. So i always think he was so annoying, i don’t like him following me. I be like “if i’m home, could you please play outside with your friend, don’t stick around/with me!” Lil sibling always look at their sister like role model, someone they like.

but now, i think it’s cool cause they don’t like me. So i could reject them now ahahahahaha. Lil me, don’t know how to hate or rejecting people, cause she have a lot of love.

It’s so funny, at time i want to cut any tie/relation with her/him, cause i already fed up. At time my anger at worst stage, i just have no heart no more/heartless, they come begging like “please, i wanna stay with you!!!!”

Don’t you know how much i hate you? Do you know? For how many years, i’m patient with your bad behavior. Hey, you already broke my heart! you already satisfy! satisfy with your revenge. You know what? Ya totally, you lost me. Get lost! ya from now on, you’re no one to me. I’ll be totally mean with you.
I don’t want to hit you back. I just want you to disappear… lil punishment

at time my maximum anger came, someone will so sudden knock my door, smile and hug me. They’re crazy or what?

Ya i mean,it is not coincident cause everytime i losing control, can’t control my anger anymore. I’m not faking, or acting . I’m totally gone crazy. So much hatred. So sudden, they will appear, out of nowhere( they: people that i respect,love and won’t do any harm to them even if i’m crazy ahahaha). Ya, just to cool me down. haishhhhh.

p/s: Drama scene kah kah kah
 at this point. I want to teach you about love and hate/anger. This 2 force are totally strong.
Ya, if you says love is a very kind of strong power so the same goes with hate/anger.

I know about love, i always using this method but with anger, i just use it sometime.
i don’t mean to use it, cause i still can’t control it well, it’ll give a lot of trouble
love can activate your true potential ( i mean, activate your merkaba star)

same goes with anger, it also can activate your true potential if you use it at the right place.

ya, love.

I can call and attract people when i’m using love force. I mean,  i think about some of people, and i want them to appear and be with me cause i love them all so much. Ya ofc. they come and stay. Love force is so strong. So don’t play with it. Don’t have to use your handphone or whatsoever to call them. Just use your heart to call them.

ya, just telling you the secret . I’m not into the mood to attract people. Cause right now, i love being alone ahahaha. So, people of love, please stay away from me!!!!!!

Ya believe me, i’m surrounded by people of love. If i asking them to help me, they will. They’re just like that. They will be like, “you want me to stay with you?” “just stay here with me” “you want me to accompany you?” “if you need any help, just tell me”

but well… i wanna do it by myself, i don’t want anyone to help me! don’t ever!!!! stubborn me :P
ya, anger.

this one, i still can develop it yet. It is so strong force same with love. The last post, i teach you about heartless character (Evil King in trinity). And this one is anger character, In trinity teaching we call it as The Destroyer.

The Destroyer and illusion, they play with time. If you could understand about this character.
You will understand about time, parallel universe...ya...about time...

key: Heartless, Revenge, Anger, Illusion, Dark, Light… (world drama)

ok..will tell you later…if i’m not lazy...just fairy tale  la~la~la

Crazy mood

my mood isn't in good shape so better stay away from me. i'm just too sensitive and i can't control my anger. so don't ever mess with me, mind ur own business, live your life, forget bout me. ya i'm angry at you.

ya you, you, you all of you. so what? don't mess with crazy people. i'm totally crazy, go find someone normal, don't  seeking this crazy girl, stupid.

jangan main dengan emosi, bangang kau jangan main dengan emosi, jangan layan emosi konon phuiii! masalahnya aku jadi emo bila nampak batang hidung kau. Bila x ada kau aman je hidup aku. So sila lenyap. vaviii betul, dah termencarut, kesian dkt piggy yg comey, dia tak salah pun. Kau tu yang worst dari syaiton.



ya the real me is like this
just the same with this song
just like a lotus flower
always in love

always missing you

it hurt like hell cause i have to wear so many faces to teach you!

so i won't ask loyalty from he/she that choose living in lie
go living in lie don't appear, don't show yourself to me cause i hate you
forget about me

so don't ask why...if i don't want to speak with you anymore
you already got the answer.

tired with movie drama

i thought i can wait until the sacred month end
but well, my mind and mood changing again
so i just let them go/kick them out…

so dear, don’t make me angry cause i won’t mind losing you
i won’t ask/won’t need your help/
i would rather die than to ask your help
so beware with your filthy mouth!

so stop fooling around cause i know the real you and all your secret!

p/s: if you miss me...don't wear your ego mask
all your "lot of mask/face too many faces
get lost!

oppss my demon...
demon...don't be bad girl ok
not suit with your sweetheart character sudden i feel angry

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Friday, May 20, 2016

fairytale time

in love story
i don’t like happy ending, i like up and down and sad ending kah kah kah
mom, if she know the story is sad ending she will refuse to watch it...ya mom

mom: ya i’ll be like, i want to burn the cinema if they play sad story

i like when boy/girl reject their beloved...i don’t care whateva their reason is
i just want them to separate, break ahahahaha crazy,
so i could feel their pain and maybe cry with them while watching movie wakaka
i’ll be like...why that boy/girl is so stupid to stick like gum eventhough they’re hurt

just move on, i hate to see your too nice character, i feel like crazy to see ur behaviour
i can’t process it in my mind, why you love her/him too much? why?? get lost ahahaha
nothing special bout him/her
-my demon character-

hurmm, i like to be reject
so i’ll have sad memory, and i can rewind it and remind myself  that precious feeling
can you think, it would be so boring if your life just full with happiness
do you agree ?
you’re too sad
then you cry
after that you’ll feel better won’t experience such thing if your life full with happy event

so when i saw that girl or boy...hah this person, i remember him/her, they make me cry, so i won’t allow them into my circle, eventhough they already change, and become nice person. Not my problem if you're nice!!!! ahahaha.

so, i’ll be like please reject me ahahaha, so i could hate you and get angry, and leave you, and i’ll enjoy my alone time without feeling guilty. Look at sky, smile at wind, enjoy my lovely food. Say i love you to all cute animal. My life just perfect. And counting time for my life to end. I want to keep all my memory, sad and happy, they’re precious to me...

p/s: ya..i think heaven/hell also will be boring for me...
i love God...i love Him

engagement day

today is big bro engagement day
congratulation! ^^
 so scary

like always, i can’t join..will wait for them to upload the picture kah kah kah   :P
told you've to kidnap..if not i can't escape wakakaka's so see friend, sister and bro passing their adult phase in human history... feel like reading story book...and watching movie...