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Sunday, January 31, 2016

answer: hmmm don't know

~*~ I wanna run to you... But if i come to you, tell me will you stay or will you run away?? ~*~

 
hmmmm....
i'm so confused...
i wanna stay cause my heart tell me to stay...
but my mind says...run away....

and most of the time i listen to my mind hmmmmmm.... 
and i feel so relief....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

hmmmm if i stay...you should appreciate...cause once a while in thousand million years
i'll listen to my heart hmmmmm...

hmmm..what to do..that is my nature...la~la~la

shhsss!!!








p/s: i don't know the link...
so  sorry owner...
beautiful painting

sometime..i just feel like watching you....
without any voice
without any word

i just want to watch you in the silence

remain silent...
feel...

hmmmm

how strange...

Friday, January 29, 2016

sad n happy

Huhu
Cannot visit sis farah at hkl
She will go home today
Not kl but terengganu huhuhu

Just call her...
And she said...she already okay
and she don't want me to go there alone
huhu....cause she worried

hmmmmm
So mom said to me....
See...if you want to do your thing/stuff
Like travel n journey do it early in
the morning..........

p/s: hmmmm but i like to travel alone
mom already believe in me...
it just my aunt n cousin...still can' t trust me...

N i like night so much hehe

haish...Allah will always take a good care of me...no harm will fall upon me... I don't need human...cause they're weak la~la~la


Someday...i'll go anywhere...i dont like to stay at one place for a long time..it make me feel crazy...huhuhu

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

dengue fever

hmmm sis Farah caught in dengue fever
now she is in HKL (today)

she vomit n lost her appetite...
-____-!!


p/s: get well soon...
p/s: inshaallah i'll visiting her tomorrow..morning
what should i bring? hmmm

i try




i love me so much...

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i remember that time, when i feel so sad with all my friend...
we can't call them as true friend...ya the fake one...
it took so many years to heal...
i'll listen to this song...you belong with me...and i'll feel better
thanks Taylor Swift.. i love you :)

people that make you feel so small, and don't know how to appreciate...
they dump you easily...i feel so sad at first..and then..season changing...
i won't care anymore...i just don't wanna see them anymore
i also feel relief to lose such people from my life

they just don't deserve any chance...
because when we give them the chance
they don't use it well

people learn from lesson...
so, i hope they will change for the better life
but not with me!!! so don't begging
thousand n million people on this Earth...
you won't die without me in your life... 

they/human always don't know...what they have
until they lose it...
and they regret...

i don't wanna give any chance anymore
your regret..then that is your lesson
your life n your karma
nothing to do with me!

p/s: so..my dear reader...don't give any second chance, to anybody...
ahahahahahahahaha

Saturday, January 23, 2016

present from my neighbour


it look like..moon n M
or sun n M
or planet n M







today i got present from my neighbour... so sweet..feel happy
we just known each other about 1 semester

she: it’s just a simple gift
me: it’s beautiful...i like it
she: i’m glad you like it...i choose it with Jannah..i’m just thinking you’ll said ewww what is this hehehe (bad me ahahaha)
me: hahaha...thank you...

ofc...i already give her present..come on...this is her last sem..i won’t see her again. I kind of appreciate when i met with a nice person. She is just like me, we didn’t sleep at night..kind of night owl ahahaha.

i love my neighbour ...Jannah’s room (syariah field) ( is beside my room, and Hidayah’s room situated front of me.. Both of them doing their master, and this semester will be Hidayah’s last sem (science field)..For next semester, only me, sis Jannah, sis Jamilah, (media field), she doing her PhD. I’m glad, i have a very kind neigbour, they’re so sweet, with their good manner, when you look at them, you’ll feel happy. 

yup..i met them this semester..4 month knowing each other..you know...i kind of a lil bit silent...and i don’t talk much, i just doing my thing...and sis Jannah, everytime she saw me, she will said:

“already finish class?” "where’re you going?" "have class?" and she will say many thing..eventhough that is our first time seeing each other..ahahahaha

and she knock my door...and give me some food hehe..

with sis Jamilah...first time i met her, she ask me where is cafe...and she don’t like dark place. She bought fluorescent tube...cause lamp front of her room already disfunction...She have 4 children, 2 already passed..only left 2 daughter...they’re so cute. She come from Sarawak...2 week stay at uni..and then she will go home. She is lecturer in Unimas.

she brought me n Jannah to Pasar Malam, she said..she can’t stay at her room alone, just need to get out from that place, cause she miss her family.

she: i always bring..Jannah n Hidayah..for outing...eating. We want to bring you too..but i’m afraid i’ll disturbing you...assignment..task
me: ooo..thank you...

and Hidayah..she knock my door and..

she: mimi..do you have movie? i kind of boring...
me: hmmm..let’s take a look...i think i have Korean movie..
and Jannah
she: all Korea? you already look like korea ahahahahahahah
me: i like cartoon huhu..

when they gather together..Hidayah, sis Jannah, sis Jamilah..one of them said to me
sis Jannah: ya..she just like to cry alone in her room ahahaha
(omg my neigbour..oh my..ahahahahahahahhhahahahaha)

and they even asking me...
do you wanna go swimming? ahahahaha
this is how they asking me...
mimi2
me: ok...wait... (i open the door and)
they: do you know..someone love you!!
me: omg...it’s so scary (i’m hugging my door)
they: that someone asking you for swimming in pool
me: ahahahaha...
they: ahahahaha..this is how she react ahahaha
they: let’s join us..
me: i’m so sorry...i gonna visit my aunt..parent is here ...thanks ...
my cheerful and active neighbour... sunshine

p/s: i want to remember each of them...they’re my sweet dream and sweet memory
i just love you..
this is just me... thanks God...

feel so shy ahaahahaha

p/s: a long talk with cousin, aunt...







Three Malaysian Scientists

KUALA LUMPUR, Jan 22 (Bernama) -- Three chemical engineering experts attached with Malaysian universities have received scientific recognition as being among the 'World's Most Influential Minds in 2015' by Thomson Reuters.

A report carrying that title released recently listed them as Prof Datuk Ir Dr Wan Ramli Wan Daud and Prof Dr Siti Khatum Kamarudin, both from Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM).

Their expertise is in the field of hydrogen energy and fuel cells.

Also on the list of the top one per cent scientists in the world was Iraqi Prof Dr Bassim H Hameed, in the field of reactor engineering and adsorption, from Universiti Sains Malaysia.(USM)

In a statement, the Malaysian Industry-Government Group for High Technology (MIGHT) said from nine million scientists worldwide, 3,000 from 21 different science and social science fields were listed in the report.

It said these highly cited reseachers were selected by analysing citation data over an 11-year period and identifying those who published the greatest number of highly cited papers.

The citation data was from the scientific citation database of Thomson Reuters Web of Science

-- BERNAMA
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p/s:yeay..i feel happy for them...
ya..we need more people like this...
^____^.


haha..my uni...
reserve forest
me n hill can't be separate huhu

but...i want to further my study..in new place huhu...
beautiful greeny scenery...but i want a new place huhu
i love this place...gonna be a lil bit sad...haish

Friday, January 22, 2016

muffin n bella

Sheeba is nice with me
She so sweet..

This muffin..
He want my nephew to sleep
He is not photogenic cause in photo muffin look different huhu..u got to believe me

Haha

I don't know what happen to bella
Why she is not kicking muffin's face like she always do...now she always licking muffin's fur.

Omg..bella..what happen?
Well mr muffin ur patience waiting for her to change..finally work out huhu..

Big sis told us.. Mr muffin getting jelous with baby..so he came to big sis and sat there..near big sis


This one..bella gave massage to baby -_-!! hehe..she love uwais...but she make a mistake...n already got her punishment..huhu
Bella sleep n sulk after got her punishment..she like to sleep beside or near baby...but muffin..once in a while, will come near baby..not always..cause he is a lil bit jelous with him..haha

Ya..bella like to give massage..ya a real massage..to big sis, mom, dad, cousin..but baby skin not suitable. Cause she don't know how to keep her claw..


I want to show you vid...how she massage my family member..she so cute huhu...














Thursday, January 21, 2016

kejamkah?



aku ingin berkata-kata dengannya
kerana aku kenal wajahnya itu
tapi lidah aku terasa kelu
lalu aku biar sahaja
terasa tenang begini

aku bertanya, hanya kerana aku berpura-pura, ingin menguji, ingin melihat, kenalkah dia? ingatkah dia?..hmmmm..rindu pula...terasa ingin aku tikam2 jantungnya hingga tidak bernafas...sakitkah? sakit?
atau dia juga mahu berpura-pura...
kura-kura dalam perahu buat2 tidak tahu :P
tapi tertawa pula bila aku acah2 mengusik
ingatkah pada janjiku?

aku akan pastikan lakonanku tampak keasliannya
hingga kau pun keliru...
seriuskah? atau hanya lakonanku sahaja
kerana aku ingin bermain-main dengan kau
aslikah...tiruankah?

hmmm..sayangku...
jika takutkan api jangan bermain dengan api!
hmmmmm


aku ini sejuk...
tapi sejukku...hingga menyesakkan nafas
bukan nafasku...tapi nafas kau! kejamkan
begitulah diriku...
ahahahahahahahaha

p/s: habis tu, nak buat macam mana? 
elakkan diri dari bertemu aku...
bukankah itu lebih senang buat aku dan kau?

bencinya..

kesewelan tiba2 menyapa...hingga cite dongeng kekejaman pun terhasil

hmmm...today life

today mom, dad, n cousin visiting me..
they'll stay here until Saturday or maybe Friday

tomorrow we'll visit aunt...hehe

i'm night owl so i watch three of them sleep..
then now..5 am...i wake my mom up...
cause she like to pray tahajud

me: mom wake up!
mom: what time is it?
me: already 5
mom: ha? i feel like...a very short sleep..
me: no..you already sleep a lot...long sleep...

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this life...
do you miss me? 
do you love me?

but what is love?
what is miss? hmmm

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

the rise of guardian ^^

today i want to talk about cry aahahahahaha...movie n bla2 thing...
i feel like wanted to write something...


today i watch the rise of guardian...and korean movie...


i like when they combine modern with traditional/historical/myth
i mean they make flash back to the past hehehe...i like it so much

i fall in love with their traditional attire

eventhough it was fiction
the tale was like a sad dream...
it make you feel like crying
you know..even though it wasn't sad scene
everytime i see they wearing traditional attire...i feel like crying
and ofc i cried...
 it is strange...

sometime i cry because of sad
sometime i cry because of happiness hmmm

 ya..everytime..i watch China, Korea fiction + historical drama
anime for Japan story (i like this genre the most)

this also happen when i listen to song
even it wasn't  a sad song...
because their voice is so beautiful...it make me cry

such cry baby -____-!!!
ahahahahahahaha

if you're sleepy when you read some history book..
i'm sleepy too but the 13 years old me..cried while read history book
she feel something deep
and then she fall asleep..
and i really appreciate people that/who love knowledge
i hope all my friend will appreciate knowledge...and never said it was a joke and game

dear..even we begin with emptiness..zero
remember, this is what you've been dreaming for so long time ago
every beginning have ending..they come and go..and what remain with you? what was left behind?
hmmmm?

one of my friend said...
in life...if all the thing come and go..what will still remain with you? even after death...
ya ofc God...
and i'll add one more answer...it is "memory"


it wasn't that easy to put your heart in every, in each small did..
when you read, when you smile, when you talk, when you breathe
because when you bring your sincere heart with you...you'll touch many heart
but it is kind of exhausted thing to do

that is why...i wonder how human could love that much..aren't they feel tired 
cause i do

i feel like dying...everyday...but i've to live...i want to solve this puzzle of life and finish it...
i want the final answer...i don't want deception...
i hate unfinish answer
i hate when you cover it..because you want to comfort me from the bitter truth...i hate it!


ya this is what i feel...
do you cry when you look at tiny small flower when found it near street when you pass by?
cause i do...

do you smile and laugh when you look at squi...and when wind blowing at you... 
cause i do..

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it feel like something is not settle yet
but however i try to grab it...it seem like it still too far
i have a thousand miles to walk before i could reach there

dear myself !
to know our own self it is not that easy
because the whole universe is inside this small body of human
look at your eyes...
look deep into it
look and stare at mirror

look deep into your own eyes...
do you know those eyes...?? 
it have a thousand of memory and story that it want to tell you

in every sadness..it'll guide you to the right path...you just need to walk and never giving up

what i do...every night....when i didn't sleep...
i didn't ask many thing to God...cause i don't know what i should tell and ask him...
i feel emptiness...
i just bring this exhausted heart...and those eyes...my heart and eyes speak the silent language
yet it is so loud...

my dream...
what i really wanted..and yearn for so long..
i want God to tell me everything...like you reading an ancient history book
from page to another page...and tell me each of that story..i wanna listen to it...
 
i want to cry, i want to laugh..i want to feel it
calmness

i don't want anything else
my wish..

this is my happiness

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dear myself...that is a bright side...
how about the dark side of me?

it;s still there...i fighting with my own self...
hatred, revenge...pain...it hurt....
and i don't deny it...
i don't deny this part of me...
i love the whole me

it is unsettle
i feel the pain..unbearable pain.. :)
don't kill that monster but control  it
don't let it hurt any innocent human...


p/s: the end ahahahahaha ^___^ :P
i'm crazy hehehe




Monday, January 18, 2016

hmmmm crystal technology




i miss fairytales time
but need to postpone it...


and focus on reality hehe
be the best hmmmm

i miss the pyramid story..i miss our ancestor story

i miss everything..so sudden...

night always make me think of a lot of thing... i love me





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this life is infinity...to live in such infinity with no ending... you’ve to create the illusion
-inao-

yura: ya...the end is the beginning...the beginning is an ending
aihara: gigantic illusion...
yura: it is so lonely
inao: this game...
yura: immortal
aihara: how to create it?

Qurratul A’in: fool...!! why you teach them to live in illusion. Look those comatoes, they’re weak. Finding what? again they caught in trap. Same mistake, same foolishness, same egoistic! haah.. curse that promises..such liar! Why make promises that you can’t even keep ..greedy, liar, pathetic human!

inao: ya Qurrat..from destruction the new life will begin. That is your role. Use that  anger to  kill  them all. May it purify their destiny. 

yura: how to create? begin with the desire inside of your heart! but remember, if you lost in this illusion you’ll feel unbearable pain. ofc, you can’t do like them. Love can’t kill human, so leave that role to them.

aihara: where will i go after this life... All still blurry. A lot of thing i still can’t remember.

yura: the beginning is ending...the ending is the beginning.. Do all you can, to make this earth  to look beautiful. Use all the knowledge. You’re still you, nothing about you is changing. The old you, they new you, that’s why we recognize you. Ya it’ll take a lot of effort to unlock all your memory. haa..you still have us... We can tell you a lil bit bout you.

aihara: the beginning is the ending?

yura: no need to hurry dear...this life is yours...infinity...different name...but it is still you..
now aihara...in past..maybe your name mean the light.. hmmm :)



Sunday, January 17, 2016

i couldn't stop laughing ahahaha DBSK !


this is a sad story right?
but why do i keep laughing ahahahaha
omg...i feel like rolling on the ground and laugh out loud..
it's so hilarious muahaha








actually it have 5 vid..but i can only find 2 of it in youtube..hehehe

-____-!! De FAM


O_O!!!


hehe...
crazy ya...

i gonna love you..until you hate me! ^____^.
i gonna show you what's really crazy
you should've known better than to mess with me..honey! ..




KL where we at represent all the girls
From the north to the west
Ampang girls where you at
Call us danger
If you dont know what you messin with

mALAysia
Get ready for this de fam
Taking over all the street of the state like a soldier
West coast east coast and the whole damn world
Took a fact to this
Tell’em





:P
don't sleep at night...
i feel more energetic right now...
finally i found myself...love me ..muah