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Friday, July 31, 2015

lil squi

Today my bad cat catch squi2 again...hmmm

But lil squi2 still alive...
I want to take care of it

Cat kill a lot of squi

I give it name

Call it squi2
 yup tomorrow we'll go to langkawi...
I want to bring squi2 with me

Ya bad cat -__-!!

Thursday, July 30, 2015

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In all matter i want to be the first and the last
Opposite than that...just get lost/vanish from my life
Don't worry about me..
Im always strong

If you love me
Just love for my sake
Love me cause of me
Love me for who i am

I don't understand about family
And you said:
Joy n sadness will be share together


Ya..i hope you'll be strong
You show me the potential in you
I see you as the people of love

Ya...i don't like drama
Allah..don't you dare
I know your secret n who you're
So don' t play this game on me
Im already exhausted...

I just need to sleep
I want to be free from you
This is not how you should do to..the chosen one

-crazy me-

travel l

This saturday...we'll visit Langkawi

Mom,dad, cousin n me...i hope it will coming true
  i want to visit that girl...
i want to be like her

I want to buy chocolate...i love chocolate sooo much

p/s: i'm just a girl
N i love me sooooo much
i want to be free...i want my own world

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

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ofc i love to look at mom and all my best friend cause i love them so much
but they can’t look back at me..cause i’m a very shy girl hehe (crazy)

ya..i just want to scan..remember...i don’t want any surgery...i use alternative way...
i just want to know...how big or small that thing..something in my body...

i’m not fully recover from it...n i don’t feel pain
ya..use alternative + modern medicine...
don’t you believe in Allah...? He can heal your illness
you can says anything to Allah..He listen and He understand..even how psycho you’ll be
-___-!!!

ofc i want a healthy body..i want to recover from stupid illness..i hate it

me: mom..don’t you feel shy..if male dr incharge for you
mom: yup..i’m not comfortable...every women doesn’t feel comfortable
me: but you still can tolerate with it...me? i can’t...if i don’t want...i’ll do anything to avoid.

p/s: i guess...i’ll not try to scan it anymore..cause i’m tired with all the progress in hospital...
they make thing difficult for patient ^^ (actually..i make thing difficult haha)
p/s: i believe i’ll recover...
p/s: ofc i love to die..when i die..i can meet with God... ^^ back to my home with my lover
p/s: don't want to talk about illness and hospital anymore..because i don;t like it and
i feel angry...


i love me..
mimi..you'll be okay..i love you





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Allah i hate you...
don’t you know i’m a very shy girl
why should male dr incharge for me...i can’t tolerate this
even with female dr too..i’m already shy...can’t you think...
nothing funny...-___-!!!

Allah don’t you remember how i speak with female dr...a few years ago
me: i don’t like dr
female dr: O_O!! ( a lil bit shocked...but she still help me)

i’m okay..with few people..cause they already old...and i feel safe.
Allah...you already know...i don’t care about my life...i didn’t scare with death...i love to die
i just want to make sure about something and i don’t want male dr cause i doesn’t feel comfortable with them. Ya for medical check up for uni entrance also i went to female dr. I don’t care if you don’t feel shy. my shyness lead me to feel like...

“DON’T YOU DARE TO LOOK AT ME!!!” “I’LL KILL YOU..” i’m okay if you don’t disturb my life...

even mom n best friend can’t look at me...

me: why you look at me!!!! look somewhere else... (i put my hand at their cheek and push it
toward another direction)
mom: it’s good to look at my daughter
best  friend: haha

p/s: this we call as shy..you’ll never understand me
p/s: i don’t know...i’m already give up with place that i hate the most “hospital’..i just ask for female dr..it just a small request...Allah don’t you dare to put any men in my life story line...i’m sick with them.

Monday, July 27, 2015

tomorrow


tomorrow morning... i’ll go to hospital
-__-!! ^^


playground for immortal





video

p/s: in playground..you don't cry...but smile and laugh

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i'm just a girl trying to find a place in this world
her word same as ayumi hamasaki
i love both of you ^^





so i don't know a lot of her song O_O
an open book so turn the page to read the whole story
the diary of me song






p/s: i'm alone on my own and that's all i know



Sunday, July 26, 2015

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you know...i hate when people says..you’ve to forget the past
(i feel like i want to kill you..just shut up!!!)
i don’t like to explain cause my heart will bleed
i hope such people will be in the same shoes as me...
so without a long explanation  they will experience it for real...
and at that moment...
they will realize...why i behave like that ^^
my anger is for teaching..human to be human
demon to be human
not for revenge

p/s: ya..people change to be nice.. i want them to be nice
you don’t have to get involve with my problem ^^
or...i’ll explain to you with real experience...the end

Erun



today..
cousin will fly to Australia
continue her master there

good luck Erun...my childhood friend...see ya..1 year from now

i'm waiting for sis Farah to fly
after that ...it will be my turn haha


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^^
ok big sis..i accept your apology
and i won’t be mean with you
la~la~la
i hope you’ll not feel pain giving birth to that boy O_O!!!!
YA..in some case giving normal birth doesn’t feel pain at all
like my aunt...her first son, she doesn’t feel pain

aunt: ya it easy for my first son...and i thought...oh...it feel like this...no pain at all
so it’s okay to giving birth again
and for my second son...then the real pain begin...and i feel like don’t want to giving birth anymore
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me: your tummy...it look like...it will explode
big sis: O_O!!! -__-
mom: HAHA
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Allah, please don’t give any pain to big sis...cause she look so pity....her tummy is so scary..and that boy is so active like her mom n dad...he can’t stop moving..dolphin....


p/s:ofc...i always adore big sis...cause i’m always lil sis
and i don’t want to get married O_O marriage is not suitable with me

yup..today...muffin and his family go to KL...ok bye2..take care

if you don't giving up...you'll still have me ^^
i always have to lower my pride...
once i do that..and you don't appreciate it
you'll regret it...

and you'll asking "why i let her go" ^^ like fool
think thousand time..before u let me go

answer:
cause i'm precious dear...PRECIOUS PRINCESS HAHA
everyone will regret if they didn't appreciate friendship ^^
my heart is so true..i'll always love you