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Sunday, May 31, 2015

heart of dog


la~la~la








we'll go to floria...
hope everything will be okay....

our last day..together ^____^.

i don't want to lose this kind of friend...
even for a while..
it's worth it

winter..floria...
night with friend...
ofc..all girl ^____^

i learn a lot from them...

ok gtg...
i love you

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mess me


i don't want to go home..yet

this is how i see world in my silence
they look so small..and full huhu
too crowded 


p/s: crazy me :P

hola


^_____^.
i live in human world
so...i try to understand ahahaha


i love you la~la~la

Saturday, May 30, 2015

the true meaning of giving




Islamic calligraphy

first time
i hold that paku pakis's pen..(batang resam)
bamboo also can... (traditional)
they said..it isn't bad for the first time trial
round 1

don't laugh at my calligraphy
i'll punch your eyes :P

i feel so excited hehe..silly me ^___^.
hehe :P
just to wrote alif/first alphabet...it's hard
:P we have to write our name
hehe
-____-!!! :P:P
see..i try...alif..ba..ta...tsa..mim

my worst "name calligraphy" compare to professional huhu

so beautiful...huhu
someday..my writing will be beautiful like that...
cammon..this is my first time huuuuuuuuuuuuu

see..a lot of mistake...
they correct our writing at front...

no..you have to try...
writing using normal pen and pencil is different from calligraphy pen
it need a lot of practice :P

friend

my name hehe..i love this..
beautiful




p/s: feel so shy haha :P

daughter of the moon



and this day
8.30am-4.00 pm i have calligraphy program
i love this one hehe

i’ll never forget...all the hard work...all the knowledge
in science techno , and in Islamic art
thanks teacher
i love you

p/s: i want to be like her
p/s: i be mean in this uni..cause dad..didn’t allow me to rest after my college (i sulk)
so i become mess...rebel...and mom always says...you can do it...for sake of Allah
(we fight haha)cammon..3 year in college...i’m so tired at that time
and i can’t see no more...alphabet...i want to vomit... (until now...almost heal)
but dad isn’t soft heart like mom..hmmm..he is same with me bhahahaha

it isn't about being ungrateful but...it feel like i'm half crazy at that time
totally half crazy and people like to read what crazy people's write n think -___-!!!
pity myself 


and another favourite teacher said: you just have to close your eyes..and 3 years gone haha
i agree with you...teacher..thanks

anyway..i already rest for almost 3 year haha
someday my timetable will be pack like this
do you think...i should pack my timetable until midnight
workaholic

p/s: i want to show big ball different big sis pic...but i think..not suitable ahaha
just wait..until that prince/princess come out..this September hehe



Friday, May 29, 2015

Kun Anta- be yourself





la~la~la
hehe


i love me

i don't care...
if you say i'm arrogant...
^_____^..

my pleasure haha

people judging... bye

pizza

i feel like i want to eat pizza
and miss mom



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i hope..i'll feel super happy this day la~la~la
i miss something like home




my progress is too slow..hmmm stuck with drama
i'm so sorry...dear my self
promise..don't get involve with drama no more.....

don't waste your tears
my song awwwwww
i love this song

Thursday, May 28, 2015

angry

today..i feel so angry with 3 boy
i feel like...."so angry"
i hope they'll get punishment

pity my friend...
she always worried
and wanted the best..and want all her friend
to be the best

cause they're friend

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everybody know..he always didn't attend class...
all lecturer feel worry with him...
and all of us already know about him
no need people to mention about you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to know your secret

all eyes can see...

suddenly..he say..i told her...my other friend told her
so everybody know about his secret
cammon..what kind of shittttt you're talking............. (i don't have time...to worry about you)
problem cat!!!! 

they all just shut their mouth cause don't want to involve in your problem@!@

but my friend..she is tooo soft hearted
still want to tell you what happen

if i....!!!!! ya i feel pity with you..but
today..you make me feel so angry..until i feel like i want "to kick you..."

i just say to him "kurang ajar"!!!!

i don't need this kind of friend...

and another boy
feel shame...

yup..keep up with your ego ^_____^.

o God...she always help you guys...and you're in same college until in uni...
only a few mistake...cause she mention your name in public...


okey...love them like always...
if i...i don't want to see their face...ya be friend like always
i'm not that patient...they;re not my friend...

p/s: didn't accept their mistake...and point finger to others
didn;t appreciate friendship...
kind of ego

get lost....

drama...arrggggggggggggg i hate drama...problem people...!!
didn't have responsibility...

p/s: ya...they're all already okay...and be friend like always...
but i'm not okay..cause they hurting my soft hearted friend
i too feel hurt...cause she is so nice with me..
precious like star
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i just say to my friend...:

if you want to give advise to people...do it in private...
cause they're a lot of ego type of people...

if you want to do it in public..don't mention their name...
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you're too soft hearted...
and always care about friend
if i....

i'll say get lost from my life...for forever
^____^.
i just accept friend..who know to lower their ego
and appreciate friendship...
if they make a mistake...
they admit..that is their mistake
and say forgive me
or i forgive you
and didn't point finger to others

say..
that is your fault
that is other fault
aishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Allah..don;t put me in such drama...
cause i feel so angry...don't show their face anymore to me...
i don;t want to see their face...

so sudden..mention my name!!!what the hell....
i'll never say your name anymore...kind of...
menyakitkan hati

tiba2 tuduh orang...daripada aku kesian dengan kau...aku jadi menyampah pulak...
jangan berani dah dekat dengan aku...nak salah2kan orang pulak...
arghhh menyampahnya aku...

you know..this kind of people
they;re so selfish
we feel pity with them
they didn't feel pity with their self

when they didn;t attend class
teacher/or lecturer will ask all of us

where is your friend??

"friend"

friend?? 

friend??

maybe...i have to say or answer

p/s: i don't have such friend...i don't even know who they're
maybe alien....i don't want such friend...

they don't know what is friend

i feel so angry

this kind of boy..make me hate friendship...make me don't believe in friendship

okay..enough about 3 boy..i already erase their memory from my mind ^_____^.
and start from now....no such people and name exist!!!!!!

i'm happy...and read book for exam...tomorrow
i love me ...

big sis

yesterday....
i feel so happy... (look at big sis picture)

and i stay in library for few hour and look at big sis picture
she sent it at our family wassap group...

she look like ball ahahaha..bhahahaha
big ball

6 month....
this September....


and we...think

me and sis Farah : boy
mom and her sibling: girl




p/s: next week..she will scan...to know the gender ^____^.
it's so weird to look at a very different big sis haha..she look like mom
couldn't stop smiling

ya...when my best friend get pregnant...i look at her...and say
me: "its so weird" and she smile
she: ya..i getting tired at this phase

and now...her boy already growing up...and so clever
me: because you bring him into class and exam hall ahahaha
she: ^____^


p/s: i have exam this morning


Wednesday, May 27, 2015

^__^.


rule to be my best friend....

1. ofc...a very kind heart person ...i won't accept rotten heart
     i mean, you have a very sincere heart
     (when i look at your face for the first time....i already like you)
     trust my gut

2.  you're not playboy or playgirl! ^____^. you're serious with friendship
     if you already have wife or husband...you're loyal to them...
    and you're not kind of boy that will get married a lot huhu
    and you're not kind of girl that will get married to already married guy
    (and be their 2,3,4 number of wife haha...don't imagine to be my friend!)
    (and allow your beloved husband to have another wife) you're too nice!
     i'm not nice haha bhahaha i'll advise:  get divorce! get divorce haha

please be someone else friend...cause i won;t allow you into my circle!

p/s: bila sakit hati mengadu dekat aku..lempang jugak nanti...
      ingat aku takde hati perut dengar kau punya cerita...
      kau yang cari pasal...aku nasihat tak pernah dengar
      sebab tu aku kena tapis betul2 jenis2 kawan yang aku nak...
      so takde serabut kepala aku..kena tikam belakanglah
      kena tikam dengan pisau tajamlah....berdarah lah!!!     
      menangislah...kesian anak2 kau...kesian dekat kau
      yang baik sangat hehe

3. even you have a sincere heart...you have to be like: not too nice..not too bad
    i mean, if people beat you...you have to beat them back! don't be patient like moron
    and after that you can forgive them haha (only if they regret with their mistake)

4.You have to be strong...even when you stand alone...Don't ask people to help you.

5. You have to be champion..not loser!!! it's okay if you're slow...make sure you win the race...

6. Don't be coward...and betray!!! cause i'll kill you with my own hand!

7. Don't ever think...that i need help!!!!!!! i let you in...cause i love you and like you
    remember: CAUSE I LOVE YOU AND TRUST IN YOU!!!
    i don't need help...i'm not that pity!!! i'll solve my own problem with /by my own self
    don't you ever ever says that "I NEED HELP!!!!" cause i'll leave you
    if i need help...i'll ask!!!

8. You have to know... "i'm crazy"...but i don't need any medicine to cure me

9. "Trust in me"...if not get lost!!!!! if you don't trust me..how you want to be my friend??
     i tell you a lot...and you don't trust in my word ( what kind of shitttt you hurting me)
     if you already taste betrayal...don't say i too will be poison like them!!!
     cause i just want to kick your mouth...die!!
     let's we be enemy ^____________^. muahahaha

10. Make sure..you're giver not taker....in a lot of thing!!!

11. and clean...you're not dirty...in heart or physical ^______^. i'm a lil mess...
      but i don't like dirty surrounding


put Allah as your helper..not human...

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p/s: i'm not fully recover from my childhood experience...but i trust in friendship
and sometime i need to be alone..from time to time
friendship is soooo sweet

p/s: only this...if you can't fulfill..please stay away from me!!!!



^___^.




p/s: la~la~la

-how does love happen?? -___-!!!

** whether your eyes are open or shut
     you'll always dream of your loved one

how do i try to explain it to you, my love?? how does love happen??
let's see how love happen

**when you're in love you're never awake nor asleep


p/s: sorry...don't understand....i don't have feeling
haha

nampaknya semangat kekejaman tuan puteri dah datang hehe ^____^.
alamak..macam mana nak buat ni?? huhu

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

^^



and i will not look back anymore

Allah...
he think i need help...
he doesn't realize..the real situation...

^____^. haha
please..replace what i already lose..with something better


i love me...

Monday, May 25, 2015

i feel so tired

^__^.

\ - _ - /

yeay...it's over...
i still don't like camp...
..i just don't like camp!!!!!!!!! (no more language camp!!!!)
it is good camp..but don't put me in such situation or camp (not suitable with me)

there..i have to talk...they choose me to be one of debater in arabic
idk how they choose...i just say a lil word
(cause the force me to speak..everyone have to speak)
-____- ooo gosh

i met my old friend..( she attend that camp)
she further study in Jordan and now she is in the same uni as mine

i can't sleep...and i lose my appetite for 3 day ahahaha
cause my stomach already full...  (maybe this we call as butterfly in stomach)

ya... i love all language...
i need to practice
cammonnnnn....right now..i just can focus on History...
i can't focus on language
it feel so worst

finally its over

in that debate...i just wrote what i want to say...and talk
and avoid any question...you know..i still stupid in that language
it's so nightmare

everytime they want to ask question, i said "tafaddol lil julus" 

"please sit!!!!"

it is not because...i want to ignore your question
i just want to make it faster...and the debate end la~la~la

i got 3 present -___-!!!
for 3 days...i fake my smile...only Allah know...
how worst deep inside my heart huhu..ao

p/s: maybe someday...when i already conquer this language...
i'll...(you can ask me hundred question)
yup..debate is a good way to improve my language and i like it
but i don't like..if i lack in preparation la~la~la

i'm in debater group in my first year in this uni...but i didn't continue to be in it...
one of them asking me.." will you be my wife??" 
you ruin my mood...

pity me...i hope i don't have to be in the same drama like before
i just want to improve my language...

Allah..if someone want to play drama with me...
please protect me..and you become my hero
don't let them steal me from you...



p/s: idk..i just don't feel anything..you handsome or not...i just don't feel anything
you rich or poor...i don't care...you're brilliant or stupid...i don't care at all

i just love me..okay...and i love all my friend
to be in my friend list...you just need to have sincere heart
Allah..i feel so small...i hope one day...i can be the very best..debater ameen

and friend say...

friend: good..you already try...^___^.


Friday, May 22, 2015

worst day

at 3 pm..we'll go to that camp...

i'm sorry...i just feeling...not okay

i don't want...

Allah...i feel too sad
and i don;t know..what to do
i just don't want...



Yui was born in Fukuoka prefecture, Japan. The Associated Press has reported that her full name is Yui Yoshioka.[6][7] She grew up in a single-parent family as her father left her mother when she was three. She stated that she had always been close to music, as she would remember the beats from music she heard on the radio, and be able to sing it. By the time she was in elementary school she thought she would like to become a singer.[8]

Self-described as shy and horrible at talking to others as a child, she would play outside by herself in mountains, rivers, by the sea and in rice paddies.[9] During her third year in primary school, she was influenced by her mother to begin writing a journal of her feelings and tried to compose them into poems. By the time Yui attended high school, she began to write songs, thinking of that as being able to express herself little by little.[9][10] While in high school, she worked part-time at a Chinese restaurant to help pay for tuition. Yet, between music, school and work, she only had one or two hours of sleep, and believed she no longer had the time to realize her dreams of a music career.[11] She subsequently became ill; however, it was at the hospital that she was overwhelmed with the desire to make music and finally decided that school and music could not coexist.[11]

Soon after leaving the hospital, she got a chance to see her first live street performance.[11] She expressed a desire to pursue a musical career to the band, Bianco Nero, at the end of the concert. The band advised Yui to join a private music school, juku. Despite the social norm of finishing school in Japan and discouragement from her teachers, Yui did not hesitate to drop out of high school and began to study guitar and songwriting at the music cram school "Voice" in her hometown of Fukuoka.[11][12] Aspiring to become a professional, she took to street performing at Fukuoka's Tenjin Station. These street performances helped Yui to overcome her shyness.


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dark :P
sorry, i'm too slow
miss me??

la~la~la




hmmmmm...as long as we don't regret neither giving up

Thursday, May 21, 2015

today story



today
teacher told me

teacher: you don’t need to rush, take your time...you have one more semester, and don’t lose hope

me: thanks teacher...ya i kind of giving up...but now i have that courage

teacher: hmmm good, begin now...and meet me everytime you finish up the writing...

and another teacher...she says “syamimi” like hi....
i love both of them...when person we admire remember our name...it feel so sweet
but when prof snape remember my name.... “it feel not okay....” but in knowledge i respect him


p/s: ofc..teacher that incharge for my writing is women..it’ll be easier to communicate
thanks Allah..after you make me cry (pity me) then you make me laugh...i hope you’ll make me laugh always...and cry only one time in  every 1000 year.... 

p/s: maybe i’ll cry at camp huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
today...friends also feel not okay..with camp..pity with her...


Wednesday, May 20, 2015

i don't want to be crazy



ok..i’ll go to that camp
Allah...i still hate that camp..i hate it...and i just hate it
don’t burden me with your silly story...i hate it so much
(you just love to see i’m crying) (God you’re not nice!!!)
(if you have your beloved..you hurt them...that is not nice!!)
if you can stop that camp...i’ll be really x 100 grateful (like magic)

1,2,3 days i’ll be in prison...i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

like friends says.. “don’t think...just go there...and do what we can...”
mom: just go there...someday you’ll smile...it will be your sweet memory
me: nothing sweet..i hate it!

p/s: i’ll be actress

p/s: you just need to shut up! this is my blog...and the way i’m expressing myself 
so i won’t be crazy...

if i’m in tae kwan do like my old self...i expressing myself with kick and punch...
so i’ll feel better

p/s: i just need to be patient...for one more semester...and after this..i don’t want to 
see this university no more...i hate it..but i love their library...heaven

p/s: and this Malaysia jaring internet also stupid...just need to die!!!!