song

Loading...

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

depression


-->
Depression is the world problem

Presentation Goal: I would like my audience to know about depression is a serious disease as much of a disease as any other physical disease that people suffer from and they have a right to get correct advice and treatment with in the same health care settings which look after other health conditions.

Thesis Statement (Central Idea):
                                    350 million people globally are affected by depression and this alarming figure is a wake up call for us to address this global non-communicable disease.

INTRODUCTION

I.          Attention Getter 
Depression is a common mental disorder that present with depressed mood, loss of interest or pleasure, decreased energy, feeling of guilt or low self-worth, disturb sleep or appetite and poor concentration. Moreover depression often comes with symptoms of anxiety. These problems can become chronic or recurrent and lead to substantial impairments in an individual’s ability to take care of his/her everyday responsibilities. At its worst depression can lead to suicide. Almost 1 million lives are lost yearly due to suicide, with translate to 3000 suicide death everyday. For every person who completes a suicides, 20 or more many attempt to end his or her life (WHO 2012)

II.          Reveal Topic
Depression is the world problem.

III.         Relevance Statement 
All of you should mind about this disease cause it kill a lot of life. If someone said to you  “i’m feel like dying!” maybe your friend, sibling or someone important to you they’re suffering depression. Help someone you love to change their life. It’s time to educate ourselves about depression and support those who are suffering from this mental disorder. WHO state by 2020 depression is expected to be leading cause of disability world wide and cardiovascular disease.


BODY

I.          MAIN POINT 1 – Old theories stating that Westernes are the only people who suffer from depression have been proven false.

A.        Supporting point 1 – Researches at the University of Queensland in the study of depression and anxiety showed that clinical depression and anxiety are serious health problems all around the world.

1.      Sub-support 1-10% in North America, Western Europe, Australia/New Zealand, 8% Middle East, 6% Asia.


B.        Supporting point 2-The new Global Burden of Disease and Risk Factors Study (the GBD 2010 study) showed:

1.      Sub-support 1- 4.7% of people (1 in 21) will have major depression,
                         7.3% of people (1 in 3) currently suffer from anxiety, 
                         the most common of all mental disorder.


C.       Supporting point 3- The World Mental Health Survey conducted in 17 countries found that on average about 1 in 20 people reported having an episode of depression (WHO 2012)



II.          MAIN POINT 2 – Type of people that suffer the depression symptom; gifted children/teenagers, adult with mid-life crises : financial crisis, economy, war

A.        Supporting point 1-Gifted individual/children will suffer existential depression, it will occur when an individual confront certain basic issues of existence such as death, freedom, isolation and meaningless

1.      Sub-support 1-even first grade, these youngster feel isolated from their peers and perhaps from their families as they find that others are not prepared to discuss such weighty concerns

2.      Sub-support 2-about half of mental disorder begin before the age of 14. Around 20% of the world’s children and adolescent are estimated to have mental disorder and problem. More than half of the people
commit suicide every year are aged between 15 and 44.




B.        Adult with mid-life crises; economy, war, earth disaster

1.      Sub-support 1-Most low and middle income countries have only child psychiatrist for every 1 to 4 million people and about 800 000 people commit suicide every year 86% of them in low and middle income countries.

2.      Sub-support 2- WHO states people who suffer depression, 5-10% is adolescents and 10-15 is adults.


III.         MAIN POINT 3 – Efficacious and cost-effective treatments are available to improve the health and the live of the million of people around the world suffering from depression.

A.        Supporting point 1-how to overcome the depression is simply communicating to someone else understand the issues that she/he is grappling with because most of those who suffer depression feel all alone.

1.      Sub-support 1-eventhough their experience is not exactly the same with other people but they’ll feel less alone if they talk to someone that can understand their situation

2.      Sub-support 2-the sense of depression can be heal through touch, daily hug for a youngster suffering existential depression and have advised parents of reluctant teenagers to say “i know that you may not want a hug, but i need a hug”. A hug, a touch on the arm, playful jostling, or even “high five” can be very important to such youngster to overcome their depression.

B.        Supporting point 2: Religious practices


C.       Supporting point 3: Avoid taking antidepressant (happy pills), even though it was popular to overcome the depression, it doesn’t mean they’re helpful. The New England Journal of Medicine, state the pill don’t work and have significant side effect.


   
CONCLUSION

I.          Summary Statement -  Depression is the serious problem all over the world, this is our duty for us to learn about depression and to help those who suffer the depression.

II.          Closing Remark – Depression is a complex illness involving biochemical structural and environmental things that are beyond human control. Human beings who are imperfect in mind, body, and spirit. Taking an imperfect medication for those who suffer depression will lead to “Dear God please kill me now” or trying to get through life with that same condition will keep getting worse the longer they go without treating it.


REFERENCES

List of your sources of reference – at least 4 sources. Use standard format.

1.Journal Depression: A Global Crisis World Mental Health Day, October 10 2012
2 BBC News, http://news.bbc.co.uk, Depression looms as global crisis
3.Article, http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/248155.php
4.Article, http://www.sengifted.org/archives/articles/existensial-depression-in-
   gifted-individual

................................................................................................................

-->
This is my reaction paper toward the title i choose “Depression Is The World Problem” I do read a lot about this depression disease whether from book or article. All the article talk about the meaning of depression, how it affect the world, who will involved in this kind of diseases, and how to overcome it, and they shows the statistic made by World Health Organization and other health organization according to this diseases. All complete but they told they need to do more research. The author was successful in making me satisfied about all the information, based on research and actual experience.
            The author said depression is a common mental disorder that present with depressed mood, loss of interest or pleasure, decreased energy, feeling of guilt or low self-worth, disturb sleep and poor concentration Moreover depression often comes with symptoms of anxiety. These problems can become chronic or recurrent and lead to substantial impairments in an individual’s ability to take care of his/her everyday responsibilities. At its worst depression can lead to suicide. Almost 1 million lives are lost yearly due to suicide, with translate to 3000 suicide death everyday. For every person who completes a suicides, 20 or more many attempt to end his or her life.
            My favourite part is existential depression in gifted individual cause most of them are children. Existential depression is a depression that arises when an individual confronts certain basic issues of existence. The same experience what I and several friends caught in at the early age of 14 years old. Gifted is not mean genius but they thinking a lot more than usual children do.
“Death, freedom, isolation and meaninglessness. Death is an inevitable occurrence. Freedom, in an existential sense, refers to the absence of external structure. That is, humans do not enter a world which is inherently structured. We must give the world a structure which we ourselves create. Isolation recognizes that no matter how close we become to another person, a gap always remains, and we are nonetheless alone. Meaninglessness stems from the first three. If we must die, if we construct our own world, and if each of is ultimately alone, then what meaning does life have?”. (quote from the article)
“When gifted children try to share these concerns with others, they are usually met with reactions ranging from puzzlement to hostility. They discover that others, particularly of their age, clearly do not share these concerns, but instead are focused on more concrete issues and on fitting in with others’ expectations. Often by even first grade, these youngsters, particularly the more highly gifted ones, feel isolated from their peers and perhaps from their families as they find that others are not prepared to discuss such weighty concerns.” (quote from the article).
“Is this all there is to life? Is there not ultimate meaning? Does life only have meaning if I give it meaning? I am a small, insignificant organism who is alone in an absurd, arbitrary and capricious world where my life can have little impact, and then I die. Is this all there is?”
(quote from the article)
I do agree with the statement, cause I and my friends we do not share the problem with our parents, because it was kind of “taboo” cause we’re muslim. So I just silent and read a lot to find the meaning of life and Harun Yahya (he compare Science and Islam) article help me a lot to find the meaning of life, and growth faith toward Allah and after that I shared my experience with mother at the age of 18 years old.
            Personally the article help a lot for me to understand the world situation about depression disease had affect and make 350 million people suffer all around the world. All the article I had read they are all great and help me a lot to understand the society that I live today and become my motivation to live this life to the fullest.  Depression kill our ability to do even a simple and easy routine. People  really need a correct treatment and advice, and what I learn from this article half from the people who commit suicide every year due to depression half of them are aged between 15 and 44, the same experience me and several friends, it begin at the age of 14 years old. I’m sorry due to late response about this issue, I’m still caught in the problem of depression and still fight to overcome this problem, my mother always support me and she ask me whether I’m willing to see psychiatrist before I further my study but I refuse and said I just need a rest. Build the strong relation with God and support from all my best friends  and they do help me a lot, but I know this is not a reason for me to not catch up with my studies, I will do my best Insyaallah. Pray for me Prof.
p/s: gotta go.. bye
p/s: i love you all cause of Allah ^_^.

Grandfather



this is my grandfather, i called him as Aki
but i never used that word
cause he passed away at the age of 63
when i'm 2 or 3 years old
he was an orphan
and her daughter (my mom) love him so much

big brother



mom said: look there is an aeroplane up there
 

big bro bro's best friend

p/s: i hope you'll smile again ^_^.

Azi's wedding


We’re here on this special day
Our hearts are full of pleasure
A day that brings the two of you
Close together

We’re gathered here to celebrate
A moment you’ll always treasure
We ask Allah to make your love
Last forever

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير

i will love you and your family forever
From now you’ll share all your chores
Through heart-ship to support each other
Together worshipping Allah
Seeking His pleasure
We pray that He will fill your life
With happiness and blessings
And grants your kids who make your home
Filled with laughter

p/s: ukth i'm sorry... ^_^.
p/s: ukht sayang...
p/s: 25/january/2013 Negeri Sembilan 
p/s: i'll never forget this day ^_^.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Roses


Gathering the roses we sang for the hope
Your voice is in my heartbeat sweeter than my dream

Roses die the secret is inside the pain
winds are high up on the hill i cannot hear You
come and hold me close i'm shivering in the heart of rain
Darkness falls i'm calling for the dawn

silver dishes for the memories for the days gone by
singing for the promises tomorrow may bring
i harbour all the old affection roses of the past
Darkness falls and summer will be gone

joys of the daylight shadows of the starlight
everything was sweet by Your side, my love
Ruby tears have come to me for Your last words
i'm here just singing my song of woe waiting for You, my love

Now let my happiness sing inside my dream
Your very voice is in my heartbeat sweeter than despair

underneath the stars shaded by the flower
hold me close in the summer day gloom, my love
You are all my pleasure, my hope, and my song
i'll be here dreaming in the past until You come
until we close our eyes

every time You calling me my heart was in such pain
gathering the roses we sang of the grief...

Allah you are all my pleasure, my hope and my song
somehow, sometime myself can't help for getting lost,
but still You are my hope...





-Kenapa? 
* saya selalu fikir kehidupan ini...

- bagaimana dengan pemikiran kamu?
* saya penat dengan hukuman...

- boleh jelaskan lagi...
* saya penat dengan isu couple, saya penat dengan isu aurat, saya penat mendengar
   segala bentuk hukuman...

- Kenapa macam tu? bukankah semuanya ada di dalam al-quran, semuanya adalah
   perintah Allah.
* saya tidak pernah menolak semua perintah itu...tapi saya tidak mampu mendengar atau
   membaca apa yang mereka tulis tentang itu. Saya menyetujui semua yang mereka sampaikan
   tapi saya tidak akan berada di majlis ilmu itu. Hati saya penat.

- pelik, bagaimana keadaan kamu sewaktu itu?
* pernah beberapa kali di majlis seperti itu tapi apabila pulang tubuh ini terasa letih yang amat,
   fikiran terasa berat, dan saya menangis...dan saya akan meracau di dalam tidur, tapi
   tidak ingat tentang apa-apa...

-Berat masalah kamu ini...tapi bagaimana dengan bacaan quran...
* saya tidak mampu mendengar sesetengah bacaan mereka...bagi saya ia bingit.
   terukkan saya ini, membeza-bezakan bacaan al-quran, patutnya saya punyai hati yang
   bersih dan dengar saja bacaan mereka tapi saya lebih suka music.
   Mungkin hati saya terlalu kotor dan sakit hanya mampu mendengar bacaan yang tertentu
  
   saya seperti tidak mahu  mereka berhenti membaca, hati saya menjerit,
   "bacalah lagi, saya mahu dengar" bacaan itu menyentuh hati saya, walaupun bacaan itu
    hanya biasa sahaja.

- Bagaimana pula pemikiran kamu tentang lelaki dan wanita...
* bagi saya sampai bila mereka ingin berlawan dengan nafsu mereka, adakah selama-lamanya
   mereka melihat sesama mereka dengan syahwat dan nafsu? Saya tidak memahami mereka.
   apakah selamanya mereka begitu...
   apakah selamanya mereka akan begitu? saya tidak memahaminya...
   bagi saya lelaki dan wanita hanyalah tubuh yang dibina dari tanah...dan yang di dalamnya
   itu yang saya pandang...Tanda-tanda atau kesan-kesan akan kewujudan Allah, ada di atas
   mereka...saya penat dengan mereka yang menasihati saya tentang perkahwinan. Saya bukan
   tidak mahu berkahwin tapi saya tidak jumpa lagi apa yang dimaksudkan dengan 
   kehidupan ini...saya penat dengan mereka yang suka mengarah itu ini...jalan mana
   yang mereka ingin tunjukkan pada saya? Kenapa apabila terpandang wajah itu, hati ini
   tenang dan rindu? Kenapa apabila terpandang wajah mereka yang lain pula, hati ini
   menangis? Kenapa apabila terpandang wajah mereka yang seterusnya hati ini gerun?
   Kenapa ada wajah yang tidak mampu dipandang? Kenapa ada suara yang tidak mampu
   di dengar? Kenapa ada suara yang boleh didengar?

-bicaralah lagi, saya mahu mendengar?
* saya sedih, asyik dengan hukumnya tapi yang di dalamnya masih goyah... Bukan begitu
   caranya. Akidahnya hilang, tapi ibadahnya ada... kenali Allah dahulu baru yang lainnya.
   Hatinya dahulu, baru luarnya. 13 tahun di Mekah, 10 tahun kemudiannya baru hukuman
   di Madinah...

- pelik ya kamu ini...
* ya saya ini gila, saya ini pesalah...tapi jangan dilihat pada si gila yang memberi buah fikiran
   ini tapi berfikirlah kamu wahai manusia yang waras, yang berakal. saya ini gila, mana mungkin
   berakal. Mana mungkin si gila yang berdosa ini mendahului mereka-mereka yang berakal..

    
video

p/s: i think i should meet psychiatrist 

Thursday, January 17, 2013

working












i remembered something at the past
when my friend ask "do you love me?"
me...i'm shocked to hear that
cause i don't understand that thing which they call love
so i just say "yes"...




video







let the dust of snow wrap 'em cold
and cover 'em with pure heart
white as snow

snow is falling
from the sky above
but can you tell me which sky?

link 

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Tabuk

1500 km from Riyadh (Saudi Arabia)-Tabuk region link




^ it look as the same place where all of this begun... (laughing slowly)
   but there is no snow, yet peace and calmness there

- but we know it was somewhere else

^ we found the house at last...it look alike

^ what about east and west?

- it will be rises from both places

^ then who will survive?

- ...it still far away aihara...it take a few years more, not now. don't want
  to see blood shed anymore. and don't leaved me alone

^ i won't

- ....

................................................................................................................................
the promised that we've witnessed that day
that far off dream are buried deep inside our thought

in a none exist place
the journey will begun 

^ yura...you found inao? 
- in the hiedeki's tragedies no one alive...
.........................................................................................................................
inao's diaries

aihara, yura, yuuya...the sign i saw, it begin at the early age of mine...i wonder what is it? 
And when i run from it, something from the opposite
world get involved in this, it forces me...

then in Gunma Japan, few years ago
while sitting at the backyard under a cheery blossom, i see a person came... 
the person touch the crystal clear water (mountain water)...and see the person bows his
head to the ground.and then he said something in a strange language...
he smile at me "you must remember this" and he disappear.

(i fell asleep under a cherry blossom...)

slowly walk back to Grandfather's bungalow behind the mountain...
they name it as Lavender...

it is my birthday...aunt told me i can ask anything that i want...

i think it was the time for me...
"doko otosan, doko okasan?" (where is mom and dad?)
can't remember anything...who am i? am alone here.. 
can't go to school? i see all the children goes there...

i just remember a few word, sudden it became all black when i wake up...there's a bluish green
diaries beside me and there was two boxes wrapped with green and blue wrapper...

there is no aunt and grandfather it was silent there...it was like a huge ancient library
............................................................................................................................................

video
...................................................................................................................................

syria link

p/s: still using worst english...i make this stories in malay...a long time ago
p/s: i have to finish something..then i'm coming home...nice to see you again (tomorrow)
p/s: i'm sorry...it is a hard time for me now, decision..
p/s: Janganlah mencari Allah kerana kita memerluka jawapan tetapi carilah Allah
      kerana kita tahu bahawa Allah adalah jawapan yang kita perlukan.
p/s: Do not compare our life with movies, dramas and novel because these things are
      written by writers but our life is written by Allah so let us always compare this life
      with Quran and Hadith and always trust Allah.
       

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

tree


video

video

i was so afraid of the days long ago
now i realize that i never did know
now days have changed; they're complex and sad
missing all the days that i once had

i don't really think that i'd want to return
today may be hard, but i live and learn
my heart believes; i don't think that its wrong
then it shouts that i've been just right all long

now is the time for our fate to connect
believing in the same future we intersect
all of the tears we've cried yesterday
let dry them up and keep smiling on today

we're a team; we share all painfulness
but yet we also shared all the same tenderness
as long as you stay right here next to me
i'll stay strong for tomorrow...you'll see

i've been fighting on and never back away
hoping i can reach all my passions someday
all in my past shows who i am right now
you'll never see backing down

lately i've asked why it is that i still try..
wouldn't it be just easy to say goodbye
i won't forget, and i'll never quit
all in my past, now i'm ready to face it

maybe the innocence will not return
or happy days; all the times for which we yearn
we still move on growing stronger each day
not even sparing us to fall down and pray

as long as we keep believing inside
our bonds will grow, and will never come untied

now that we've travelled so far
i hope you can find out just who is it you are...

video


somewhere in the past i listen to this song ringtone, but i didn't know, that was a song...
i think i had enough strength to face it but the unconscious mind won't let me...
whenever it come back my legs will trembling. i feel really weak and terrible
i won't recognise my self any more it seems like someone else..

video

i used to avoid facing my past, leaving it behind
but now i try my best to recall cause i want to forgive my self, that is why i'm here
and i'll lost all my treasure that is important and worth in my life
pain and hope, i see the future, it will be a long ways inao, aihara, yuuya...
i see all of them died front of me and it can't be stop...it is sad when we know 
but can't avoid it...
(yura hiedeki)

tokyo 2013 link
..........................................................................................................................

inao, if i hadn't met you in this world we live in, i would never have learned
how to believe in my dreams...

as the times for journey draws near we take our separate paths
but you taught me how to wear a smile on my face..
(yura hiedeki)
......................................................................................................................

p/s:yura is something (symbolic) about the swaying heart inside us...
     thus, someday it will disappear and our faith won't be swayed again
     it is worth to met this yura...
p/s: i don't know xillia i just know illya which mean yerusalem :)
p/s: so what you'll do in this holiday (a month)?
p/s: memorizing surah al-baqarah (okay a part of my challenge and dreams) ^_^.
p/s: attend your wedding haha...insyaallah, both are my friends...best friends ever
       (i win :p)
p/s: i've to be naqibah (guidance) for our junior? but i told her, i will never be, if i didn't finished
      memorize al-baqarah...okay deal...promised
p/s: see i'm facing the future, i try my best
p/s: of course i'm tired...but please...i still love all of you cause of Allah
p/s: when i feel tired, i feel like disappear and i want to be gone
p/s: feel terrible and bye....
p/s: of course memorizing Quran is just a beginning, cause i don''t understand...a lot
p/s: someday i'll make both of them smile

friends


Graph of most popular countries among blog viewers
Graph of most popular countries among blog viewers
Graph of most popular countries among blog viewers

Graph of most popular countries among blog viewers

p/s: why?
p/s: me learn a lot from all of you...
p/s: and me love all of you cause of Allah
p/s: but something stuck in my head
p/s: i can't stay here forever
p/s: i'm tired
p/s: us know...our destiny is a long way to go
p/s: i tell a lot...and we do think a lot
p/s: when will be the end
p/s: i had recall the memories
p/s: a lot of instinct..read our mind...it is the same
p/s: go and find your way
p/s: it is something about (book) Fath Rabbani by Sheikh Qadir Jilani 
p/s: learn and search the knowledge until our heart knows and recognize
p/s: God...and destiny

video

i tell a lot of it... it's a heart tell. if it's a joke it won't influence my life. and i think i should stop...
you learn and read from someone that is crazy...go and find a right guidance

Surah Al-Asr (The Time) 
i'm loss a lot and didn't realize, cause i'm wicked girl
waste a lot of my time...

come and join me...your Quran first...and mujahadah and find a lot of good friends ^_^.


video

video

video

video

video

video

....................................................................
fly high

video

video

kowagatte fumi dasezuni iru ippo ga
kasanatte isukara ka nagaku nagai
michi ni natte te okure ni nattarishite
sono uchi ni nani to naku ima no basho mo
warukunai kamo nante omoidashite
nani to ka jibun ni riyuu tsuketarishita

HONTO hanetatta no ichido mo rikai shinai mama de
subete ga wakatta FURI o shite itanda ne

The step that is unable to be taken because of cowardice
As time goes by
Unconsciously it becomes a long road
It feels like everything is too late

Slowly , i realise that the place i am in now is not to bad either
i found myself a few good excuses

To tell the truth , i have never understood
but i acted like i knew everything

subete ha kitto kono te ni aru

ugokanakya ugokasenai kedo

subete ha kitto kono te ni aru
hajimenakya hajimaranai kara

Everything is in these pair of hands

If there is no action , how can there be movement ?

Everything is in these pair of hands
If you don't take the first step , how can there be a
beginning ?

......................................................................................

If one day i were to return here again
Using the same eyes to gaze at the same sky
Will i still feel that it is just as beautiful ?
Maybe i am thinking too much
i should go sleep and talk about it tomorrow
..........................................................................................................................................

so sleepy bye....

voyage...link link2
so creepy that joker..i didn't watch the story haha
when i think about color..it will be like this
0=black 1=white 2=yellow 3=orange 4=pink 5=brown/human 6=green
7=red 8=purple 9=blue hehe just kidding