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Monday, December 31, 2012

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answer...

left them astray, and sealed their hearing and their heart, and put a cover on their sight...
who then will guide...

was it me, was it others, was it just a clock...the things seem to be disappear...

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why is the sky so blue?
as if it's never known sadness
it always crumbles away
toward tomorrow
without hesitation

the sky is clear and the wind sings
i had a dream...

even so this eyes of a child
won't never see al-batil
won't never said a lied

he said they won't believe
i think and they think it is fantasy


(inao hiedeki)

p/s: bye 2012
p/s: welcome 2013

snow-yuki

http://wallpaperscraft.com/tag/snow/page3






the flower is sad...

devianart
she cry red tear

12 mei 2011/ 5 am

15 mei 2011/ 5 am

they occur with light within dark?
it was planet

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soredemo waratte itte kureta "takaramono da" to

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jibun jishin datta ka mawari datta ka soretomo tada no
tokei datta kana kowaresou ni natte'ta mono wa

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Friday, December 28, 2012

Dr Ang Swee Chai

http://www.inminds.co.uk/from-beirut-to-jerusalem.html


Life ~ what life is like to us?
Our hearts have died and our tears have dried
for all the men and women who fell

God All Mighty give us patience
and our children ~ may our love be lantern to Your path
and may God show me the holy way

Doctor, please go away ~
you have reopened all our wounds,
we are so weary, what is there to say?

Dr. Ang Swee Chai talking at a London Mosque
(out of respect for Islam she wore a head scarf in the Mosque)

Dr Ang Swee Chai grew up supporting Israel. Arab, she was told, were terrorists but in 1982, 
on the television she saw the relentless bombing of Beirut by Israeli planes. Shocked, her view
of Israel began to change. I t was then that she heard of an international appeal for an 
orthopaedic surgeon to treat war victims in Beirut. The petite woman - she was just under 
1.5 meters - resigned her job in London, bade her husband farewell and set out on a journey 
to civil war Beirut, there she was to eye-witness the Sabra-Shatila massacres.

"The slaughter of unarmed children, women, the aged and the infirm was shocking.
For me, i was doubly outraged that i had to discover the truth about a brave
and generous people only through their deaths. Until then, i never knew
Palestinian refugees existed. As a fundamentalist Christian, i had been a
supporter of Israel, hated Arabs and saw the Palestinian Liberation 
Organisation as terrorists to be loathed and feared." 

(Extract from the back cover of her book "From Beirut To Jerusalem")


For the first time we were out from the basement operating theatre
and we can see what has happened ~ whilst we were operating, trying 
to save a few lives, the people of the camps were massacred -killed-
their bodies left rotting


old man tortured- eyes gouged out - before being murdered

the truth hit me painfully. Besides being shot dead, people were tortured
before being killed. They were beaten brutally, electric wires were tied round limbs,
eyes were dug out, women were raped, often more than once, children were 
dynamited alive. Looking at all the broken bodies, i began to think that those
who had died quickly were the lucky ones...

(Book "From Beirut to Jerusalem" Dr Swee Chai)


the "lucky" survivors - now homeless orphans
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latest vid 2012

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dear little brother...we're lucky right?...see up there



in the night sky, they twinkle The far stars of gold
the same color as the small bird that looked up in my dream last night

in the sleepless night, i sing this song alone
together with the blowing wind, i fly riding on my thoughts

in the night sky, it sparkles The distant moon of silver
the same color as the wild rose that blooming in my dream last night

in the gentle night, i sing this song alone
let me sing with you tomorrow Riding the wings of dreams

in the gentle night, i sing this song alone...



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p/s: i've finished reading her book "From Beirut to Jerusalem" 2009/2010
p/s: she is my inspiration ^_^.
p/s: link 
p/s: link 
p/s: love all of you cause of Allah


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will you try to blindly believe in light?
or will you fear the darkness...



Wednesday, December 26, 2012

^_^.

me love both of you...
be the best hmm...
10 years from now you both will be the best...

wish for it...

+ she really is
- and i remind her of her brother too
+yeah that was wow
-yea it was
+ it made me tear up
- me too
+sad smile
- tears in my eyes

+ i'm about to bawl
- me too :(
+ ohk feeling emotional sucks :(
- it does but we need to feel emotional once in a while :(
+ i know but it's good kind of emotional
-yea

+wiping away tears
- hides my face so you don't see me cry
+ ohk more tears now
- yea
+ half laugh half sob~ stop crying so i can
 ~ cries a little okay
+ ohk? cries a little too
- i'm okay now - wipes the tears but they come back slowly

+trying to stop the tears and be in control again
+ ohk we're ohk
- tilts head back and puts my hands on my face- we're okay breathe in
  and out.

+in and out
- slowly
+ yeah ohk wipes away remaining tears
- breathes slowly- im okay
+ exhales ohk (:
- and then there was one
+ i'm still here
+ so there's two,
- okay

- what should we talk about now?
+ umm nothing sad or emotional i know that...
-yea, spongebob
+ i like patrick
- he's funny
+ yeah and adorable
- he is very smart too :p
+ lol yeah
- i wish i could make a rainbow
+ oh it'd be beautiful
- yea thanks..
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p/s: my little brother like to watch sponge bob too lol haha
p/s: cheer my life ..cute cat and white heart
p/s: please made some stories for me lol
p/s: so i'll remember both of you
p/s: thanks snow :) your the best older sister i could ever have :)
p/s: appreciate that :)
p/s: so grab your dream



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Kimi to natsu no owari shourai no yume
Ookina kibou wasurenai
Juu nen go no hachigatsu
Mata deaeru no wo shinjite
Saikou no omoide wo...
You and the end of summer and the dreams of the future
And our big hope, I won't forget them.
I believe that we will meet
In August 10 years later.
The best memories...


Deai wa futto shita shunkan kaerimichi no kousaten de
Koe wo kakete kureta ne "issho ni kaerou"
Boku wa terekusa sou ni kaban de kao wo kakushi nagara
Hontou wa totemo totemo ureshikatta yo
Our meeting was made in a moment at the intersection
walking home.
You called out to me, didn't you? "Let's go home together."
While I embarrassedly hid my face with my bag,
In truth, I was very, very happy.


Aa hanabi ga yozora kirei ni saite chotto setsunaku
Aa kaze ga jikan to tomo ni nagareru
Ah, the way the fireworks beautifully bloom in the sky
is a bit lonely.
Ah, the wind flows along with time.


Ureshiku tte tanoshiku tte bouken mo iroiro shita ne
Futari no himitsu no kichi no naka
So happy, having so much fun, we had so many adventures
Inside the secret base that belonged to us.
Kimi to natsu no owari shourai no yume  Ookina kibou wasurenai
Juu nen go no hachigatsu mata deaeru no wo shinjite
Kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara "arigatou" Sakendeita koto
Shiteita yo


Namida wo koraete egao de sayonara setsunai yo ne
Saikou no omoide wo...
You and the end of summer and the dreams of the future
And our big hope, I won't forget them.


I believe that we will meet in August 10 years later.
I knew that you screamed "Thank You" from the bottom of
your heart till the very end.


A goodbye when you hold back your tears and
smile is lonely, isn't it.
The best memories..


Aa natsuyasumi mo ato sukoshi de owacchau kara
Aa taiyou to tsuki nakayoku shite
Ah, summer break will be over in a little longer too, so
Ah, the sun and moon get along.
Kanashiku tte sabishiku tte kenka mo iroiro shita ne
Futari no himitsu no kichi no naka
So sad, so lonely, we had so many fights
Inside the secret base that belonged to us.


Kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara "arigatou" sakendeita koto
Shiteita yo
Namida wo koraete egao de sayonara setsunai yo ne
Saikou no omoide wo...
I knew that you screamed "Thank You"
From the bottom of your heart till the very end.
A goodbye when you hold back your tears and
smile is lonely, isn't it.
The best memories...


Totsuzen no tenkou de dou shiyou mo naku
Tegami kaku yo denwa mo suru yo Wasurenaide ne boku no koto wo
itsumademo futari no kichi no naka
There's nothing I can do about the sudden change of schools,
So I'll write letters, I'll call you, so please don't forget about me
Forever, inside the secret base that belonged to us.
Kimi to natsu no owari zutto hanashite
Yuuhi wo mite kara hoshi wo nagame
Kimi no hoho wo nagareta namida wa zutto wasurenai
Kimi ga saigo made ookikute wo futtekureta koto
Kitto wasurenai


Dakara kou shite yume no naka de zutto eien ni...
I was talking to you for so long at the end of summer
After we watched the sunset, we gaze at the stars.
I will never forget the teardrops that flowed down your cheeks.
I'm sure I will never forget



That you waved your hand with all your strength to the end.
So let me be inside this dream like this for eternity...
Kimi to natsu no owari shourai no yume Ookina kibou wasurenai
Juu nen go no hachigatsu mata deaeru no wo shinjite
Kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara "arigatou" sakendeita koto
Shiteita yo



Namida wo koraete egao de sayonara setsunai yo ne
Saikou no omoide wo...
You and the end of summer and the dreams of the future
And our big hope, I won't forget them.

I believe that we will meet in August 10 years later.
I knew that you screamed "Thank You" from the bottom of
your heart till the very end.


A goodbye when you hold back your tears and
smile is lonely, isn't it.
The best memories../
Saikou no omoide wo...The best memories...



secret base ~Kimi ga Kureta Mono~ (10 years after ver.)
secret base ~What You Gave Me~ (10 years after ver.)

Saturday, December 22, 2012

darkness

^_^.

i'm not your light...my purpose is i want you to feel this pain...
pain to live in the darkness...
can't betray this heart
i can be wicked
i can be nice
no one
knows

my heart...feel this pain...i'm longing and yearning your name
but it's useless

God chosen this fate
i'm obeying You
and preparing
my self

as i look they're passing front of me, i wonder who make them moving
just like seeing the play on a screen, i wonder where is God in this silent scenery
and my tears blurring this eyes

what make me gentle now...is your helping hands that hold me...
friends it is your warmest smile...

God
inside me full of darkness, pain memories
this pain, this grief, i'm longing it to You

God
what make me stop and be with them...and playing the same
as their melancholy

no praying...skip praying...where is You God?
i see the descendent of him...but they're losing
and i'm not shouting , i just let them be...
wicked me

(Qurratul 'Ain)

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suki na mono dake o erande'ku no ga
musekinin datte wake janai
suki na mono sae mo mitsukerarezu ni
sekinin nante toriyou mo nai
seou kakugo no bun dake kanousei o te ni shiteru

iranai mono nara sono daujoushin...

好きなモノだけを 選んでくのが
無責任だってワケじゃない 
好きなモノさえも見付けられずに 
責任なんて取りようもない 
背負う覚悟の分だけ可能性を手にしてる
いらないモノならその同情心 ...

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haze da yo ne
hitori bocchi de kanjiru kodoku yori
futari de ite mo kanjiru kodoku no hou ga
tsurai koto no you ni

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p/s: ^_^. feel this pain...make it come true
p/s: i don't want to make it come true by my self....

Friday, December 21, 2012

secret


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My God
in confusion i still utter your name...
i'm losing my form and wander in this strange land...

time passes quietly...it flow faster than yesterday
it is not my turn to be with...

but...

life is like a dream
i'm a dreamer
searching the meaning of You...

my Lord what lasts forever and eternal?

it is my destiny..
i wonder why this dark memories was chosen to be mine...

this life is a play on the screen
this life is like a puppet and puppeteer

(inao hiedeki)
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p/s: love you all cause of Allah

p/s: someday they'll leave me...
p/s: who?
p/s: who do you think?

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Syria


syeikh Muhammad Ali al-Sabuni Syiria-82 years old

he was here yesterday...but i miss it..aish..its okay 
mom and dad will be here tonight hehe ^_^,

at last they'll be here...bye..




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Even you have a lot of money, You can't never ever buy friends
Even i've nothing, i know everyone are always with me
Everyone know me
Everyone listen to my dream, and they wish for it to become true
what else i can say, God Bless you, my friends

if many good things happened today
i hope tomorrow to be more even better
The sun is rising right now, and it's so beautiful 
and i pray for tomorrow the sun will rise once again...

getting into a fight that child cries
unable to say "i'm sorry" (why you shoot me?)

even if you scream and cry inside of your heart
it's useless if you don't turn them into words

thank you, thank you, my friends
i want to see all my new friends
i hold hands with you and it turns into wings
i hold hands with everyone and we can be free

everyone listen to our dream
everyone knows us
how are you, now?
i'm fine

I want to lie down on the green grass...
I want to tumble together with the animals...



Monday, December 17, 2012

memory

 in the name of Allah the most beneficent and the most merciful

setitis air mata ibu yang gugur kerana kesedihan
segaris luka di hati ibu kerana kederhakaan
tertutup pintu syurga jika tiada keampunan nya...

when i'm in college...with my best friend...this is the ringtone of her handpone
that wake me up every morning...haha
 when i wake up...the tears was overflowing
you make me cry every morning

this nasyid song talk about mother, never hurt your mother
sweet memory yaa..dearest friend ^_^.

Bukan khayalan
Yang aku berikan
Tapi keyakinan yang nyata...
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p/s: now i meet my friend...can't be alone today...haha ^_^.
p/s: what wrong?..nothing..
p/s: you thinking what i'm thinking...today is a lot of "lol"
p/s: i don't know cause this tears is overflowing when i'm alone 
p/s: it is overflowing even in a crowded places
p/s: is it you, my all friends..miss me that much? or me who miss all of you haha
p/s: ^_^. just kidding  
p/s: got to finish something..."about nuclear issues" so sorry i late..i know
p/s: ok bye...love you all cause of Allah... ^_^.



sadness


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kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao
kinou yowakatta jibun to ashita kitto tsuyoi jibun to
anata nara dare ni miseteru? watashi nara dare ni miserebai ii???

today’s happy faces, today’s sad face
yesterday’s weak self, tomorrow’s strong self
if it’s you, who are you showing it to?
if it’s me, who should I show it to?


jikan nante mono wa totemo toki toshite zankoku de
demo sono zankokusa yue ni ima ga tsukurarete

time is sometimes a cruel thing
but the present is made by that cruelty


hito o motome yamanai no wa isshun no kaihou ga
yagate otozureru kyoufu ni masatte iru kara

unceasingly searching for someone, an instant of release
soon triumphs over the visiting fear


ashimoto de yurete iru hana ni sae kidzukanai mama de
toori sugite kita watashi wa kagami ni mukaenaku natte iru

As I don’t even notice the flowers shaking before my feet
I cant even look at myself in the mirror


kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao

kinou iyasareta kizu to kyou fukaku hiraita kizu o
anata nara dare ni miseteru???? watashi nara dare ni misereba ii?

Today’s happy face,  today’s sad face
yesterdays’s healed wounds and today’s deeply opened wounds
if it’s you, who are you showing it to? if it’s me, who should I show it to?

....
why...hmm...something make me sad...
dear all friend...

"kimi no sono yokogao ga"
kanashii hodo kirei de ^_^.

nani hitotsu kotoba kakerare nakute
kizukeba namida afureteru

kitto minna ga omotteiru yori zutto
kizu tsuiteta ne tsukarete ita ne
kizukazu ni ite gomen ne

sadness make our profile beautiful
i'm sorry

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p/s: i need someone right now :( just kidding lol haha
p/s: i need you ALLAH...
p/s: ok...bye love all of you cause of Allah